♥

Friendship .

2010-01-27T21:41:00.003+08:00

Awkwardness between me and twinney lasted for a week plus already.

And things are not getting any better.

Sort of have a fight with him today over at twitter.

And i think i am quite affected by it.

I hope everything could be back to normal, once again.

Because i really don't want to lose this friendship, i really dont.

Anyway, i am blogging elsewhere instead.

Updates

2009-11-25T23:15:00.004+08:00

Today, i went over to M'sia to visit my uncle who just had a surgery on the intestine.
Daddy drove us there, and there's a jam when on the way back.
And i totally forgotten about my RJ till Helmi text me :O
I told him that i'm still outside and he offered to help me to complete everything!
So nice of him, for ONCE!

THANKS HELMI !

and i texted OH LI LING, but yeah, that wugui never reply! hmpf.

On monday, i went for the adventure learning with a few of my classmates.
And i shall let the picture do the talking.
(there's more uploaded in facebook)

and and and !
ima going for movie with few of my classmates tomorrow :D!
and blackkkk tomorrow ! heees .

* p/s : watched paranormal activities in class today , it suppose to be a horror show ? but Joel never fails to scold vulgarities even when watching movie . that's so so him . but at least he makes the show not that scary , pheww . but still , the last part of the movie is still playing inside my mind now . and i swear , i'm like so scared .

Finally posted

2009-11-17T00:05:00.003+08:00

A story to update everyone :D

Once upon a time ...

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind.
She hated everyone except her loving boyfriend.
He never fail to be there for her, always.
One fine day, the girl made a comment.
Saying that if only she could see the world, she would marry her boyfriend, definitely.

Days later, someone donated a pair of eyes to the girl and the operation was sucessful.
She could see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend then asked her, 'now that you can see the world, will you marry me?'
The girl was shocked. Because she saw that her boyfriend is also blind, and she refused to marry him. And eventually, asked for breakup.

Her boyfriend then walked away in tears.
And later wrote a letter to the girl saying ....
'Just take care of my eyes dear, I'll leave the exploring of the world to you, And remember this, i love you, always.'

Is being blind an obstacle to love ?

Is love blind ?

P.S/ people, there's too much things that have happened. and i believe everything is going back to normal again. oh, maybe i shouldn't say back to normal. it should be, everything is fine already. and yeah, i won't be updating everything though. anyway, i'm always tweeting on twitter :D feel free to follow me there to know more about my daily updates!

2009-10-16T19:38:00.002+08:00

It's never never easy to part with E35E, never.
Those tears shed when facing separation is not for nothing.
Yes, i might be emotional, but i would never teared for something that i don't give a damn about.
New class now, many are saying that each of us will have new friends and forget them.
Till this moment, i couldn't ensure that W16G would not bond.
But one thing for sure, even if we bond, it will never be the same kind of happiness i had from E35E.
And i am so sure that W16G could never give me the same feeling and treatment E35E had given me, and this is what that will never change.

Ok, i shall stopped here.
I am really not feeling well.
My chest hurts a hell lots ) :
I think i am dying ..

the 1st day of sem 2 , w/o e35e ):

2009-10-05T20:08:00.004+08:00

Today is the first day of semester twooo .
Semester two didn't start off that well because it's without E35E .
Really feel like running away from school , but in the end i didn't , because i met up with E35E people before stepping in the new class , at least it's a good start of the day :D
Chit chatted and try to spend that little time together , and we overshot the time .
Dragged my foot to class , stepped in the class , and realized many pairs of eyes were staring at me . So so so , awkward .

( CAN YOU GUYS SENSE THE EYES ? )

Everything is so different from the past , the silence in there can really kills :O

Used to step in E35E class , even if i am late .
The welcome greeting , even though it's funny , it actually warms the heart .
Like forever they are welcoming you to join them .

So so , back to class .
Today's lesson was fine , but you know Cognitive , it's known for killing braincells , so yeah .
But overall , class were fine , not really close , but not that bad either .

After school , met up with them still , over at TRCC .
Chit chatted and then headed to Causeway point .
Went to foodcourt and planned to discuss about Alexis's birthday celebration this coming Saturaday .
But out of a sudden , Amin suddenly have an idea of making up for my birthday , cause they couldn't make it there to celebrate my birthday that time .
So they went off to buy somethings , leaving Jocie , Malcolm , Ida and me there .
After quite some time , they came back with a mini cake which looks really beautiful and yes , super random birthday presents !

Thanks people ! Even though it's like after two weeks already , you guys still thought of making it up . Actually there isn't a need ah , but seriously , thankyou :D !

Stepping in the new class (W16G) seeing no familiar faces ..

Calling out for classmates but hearing no familiar voices ..

Turning around to ask for help yet couldn't call out their names ..

Laughing at the jokes they crack making me miss E35E so much ..

Alone surviving in a new class with 24 new students , i felt so helpless ..

Some said that it's just the first day , will get used to it soon ..

Perhaps i will get used to the new class , but definitely not used to do without E35E ..

2 1/2 more years to go , how long more could the meet up last ? - i wonder , i really wonder -

I am so not used to the new class though it isn't that bad overall , but still , the only thing i look forward to , is meeting up with E35E every morning , every break and every time after school .

Perhaps , this is the only lil things that all of us could do to keep the bond there .

Cause i know , i never wanted the friendship to end just here .

The journey of E35E had officially ended today when each of us stepped into our new classes .

But one thing for sure , our friendships never ends .

* PS// i am not emo-ing . but hell yeah , just stating what i feel . i dont know how long more of this type of posting will last . but hope everyday will be a good day .

God bless ex E35E peeps .

Let me end with the photos taken today , E35E still : D

all of us here have brown hair , isnt that nice (:

the loves lies there forever .

Forever memories

2009-10-03T13:17:00.005+08:00

I've many many many things to update on.
Things like my belated birthday celebrations with different groups of friends, outings and etc.
But but, it will be a really really really long post if i were to blog about everything. And so, i decided to post only about ... E35E 2nd Class Chalet :D

The long awaited E35E second class chalet is finally here , 28092009 !

Day One
Went to see doctor again before i go for chalet .
So met up with Jocie only at around 1130pm at Amk .
Cabbed down to Amk to meet her cause if not we will missed the last bus .
So when i reached the bus stop, i gave her a call because i don't see her anywhere in sight .
And her retarded phone cannot accept calls .
But well , in the end , after so much of panicking , we manage to catch the last bus and make our trip down to Pasir Ris (:
Reached Pasir Ris , cabbed down to Aloha Loyang main entrance , thinking that they will sent someone at least to fetch us from there because they told us to wait there .
But when we reached , i texted Divya saying that we reached and asking for directions to the chalet , but there's no reply .
So sat down at the main entrance and wait . We're both like some pathetic kids whom just got kick out of the house and have nowhere to go lah .
But after quite some time , Ziwei text and asked . Then finally we have someone to get us to the chalet .
But were abit awkward when first reached there , perhaps its because we didnt see each other for quite a long time already .
And so , we went back our room to unpack our stuffs .

( this is what we have in our bathroom , and it's only just the two of us :D not alot of things right ? :p )

After that , Daryl came inside our room . He's drunk and doing all the nonsense stuffs .
Like :
- waving hello like an idiot
- saying ' eh, michelle, you like fat liao leh'
- trying to break open jocie's phone in a wrong way
- showing off the girl in her phone
- keep whining about noone smses him
- wanting to change phone with jocie but putting in the wrong battery

( This is how dumb he can get when he's drunk. Tskkkkk x3 )

And yeah , the day ended with me and Jocie spending time chit chatting in the big big room of ours till 4am .
But halfway through our sleep , we both felt real freezy so both had the intention of switching off the aircon , but none wanted to move , so we're just trying to make ourselves warm but really not comfy at all .
In the end , Jocie surrender and she got up to off it :D

Day Two
Rise and shine .
Wore the Levis red tee bought together with Jocie :D

( camwhore ^.^ )

Went out to the living room and join the others :D
Teamed with Daryl! Oh, he can play well is bball not definately not soccer mansxz. A retard is using legs, muhahahahahahaha. So the opposing team, which is the team with great pairing up - Aizat and Divya won the game :p

During the soccer game , Yujuan hurt her leg while playing .
We shall give her a clap for playing so enthusiatically in the game and sacrificing her leg .
Poor thing , i bet she hurts like hell at then ]:
So the game was paused due to Yujuan's injury, held her back to her room and started helping her to manage the wounds .
Jodie and i were playing nurse game on her . Trying to wrap her feet like as if she got her toes cut off . But unfortunately , we forgotten to take a picture of our hard work :x Hahaha !

Headed out to NTUC to do some grocery shopping for the chalet .Came back and helped out in the kitchen to start the BBQ .Everyone was helping out here and there , it's really HOT-WARMING . (heartwarming) how nice .

BBQ started , but all of us , the girls were glued to the TV watching the wedding of Fann Wong & Christopher Lee .
The guys were making noise when we are paying attention to the TV instead of helping them out with the things . But at last , all of us gathered there and the night starts .

Aizat gave me my belated birthday present which is wrapped with don't know how many many layers of newspaper . And wow ! What a surprise ah , totally stunned . Lols . Ok , no more further say . Stop here :D But thanks though !

( dont we all look like we're a family ? how sweet that is isn't it ? (: )

After the BBQ , which all of us were damn full , all went to have their own activities .
Jocie and me decided to clear up the place because it's really incorrigible .

During the night , after we bathed and stuffs . The guys wanted to head out to 7-11 to get some stuffs , so me and jocie tagged along with them , while the others stayed in the chalet , some were even asleep .
They pushed the trolley along , and i sat inside .
The feeling is damn shiok , cause i dont have to walk :D
Reached mangoswamp and were discussing whether we should go in .
Some wanted to , but some don't .
So in the end , Jocie and Daryl walked the other route while me and the others went in .
It looks really scary at the starting because its totally pitch dark . But as we slowly walked in , the route became brighter . Actually the feeling walking inside its just like walking in the evening and not midnight , so it was still pretty alright (:

Ended the journey of walking inside , went under mrt track and waited for the both of them , and we started crapping about things .
This is the part where dou sa pia came from .
Dou sa pia = Bean paste cookie ? LOL . what a good translation hor , ZW .

After waiting and waiting and wonder why they both took so long to reach , they actually reached 7-11 before us already . So headed to Mac and slack awhile after that when we about to go back to the chalet , its raining . Therefore , we cabbed back instead . Though it's much comfy taking cab back . But now , i rather that time we walked back , we could have spent more time together walking and creating more memories ...

Finally we're back to the chalet , and everyone's asleep .
When me and Jocie wanted to head to bed already , Amin and Aizat came into the room and disturb all the way to 5 in the morning then we can get to sleep .
Some guys came in and share the room with us , because our room is bigger (:
And yeah , all the way till the next day .

Oh , the same thing happen at night again .
Jocie felt cold and she get me to off the fan for her when i'm like sleeping !
After that i asked her where's the fan control , but she passed me the aircon control .
I was quite stunned , and suddenly remember that the fan controller dropped down to the bottom of bed .
So no choice i've to get out of bed to off it , but i think i wasn't really awake so i asked her where is the switch , but miracly , she managed to point to the right place .
If not , i am so gonna kill her the next morning . Lols !

The second day ended like that .

Day Three

Woke up. But did nothing much in the morning.
Card games and all. Just plain slacking.
And guys get so stuck on the game console that Ron brought there.
It captures all the guys attention leaving them glued to the TV also.
Ah stupid ron, it can be really irritatiing when you see them get so stuck on the game.
Lols, after that we started to prepare for the water bomb game .
Filling up plastic bags and all : D

While getting ready , the guys make a sneak attack .
Aizat threw the water bomb , and it hit right on me .
So threw one back , and it kena Amin .
Its like so so so fun (: So the game continued ...
And when we the girls thought that the game ended cause all of us ran out of water bomb , then we got a shocked from the guys .
They filled up water in pails adding in soap and plan an attack on us .
And it goes on and on ..

( i think i dont have to further elaborate it , because E35E know what happened on that day best (: ! the fun we had there is unable to be described using words , esp the water bomb part )

After the game , all of us quickly wash up and get ready to head out to E-hub .
And some went home at then too .
Supposingly , we should go NTUC in E-hub! to get spices for cooking dinner .
But when we reached there , it's already closed .
So we walked to a further place to get them . Were quite fun walking with them though it's very tiring .
And yeah , when we went back the chalet , we started cooking already .
Everyone helped out here and there . Wenting , Lesden and I were figuring out how the beehoon and rice should be cooked so that it will turn out edible .
So yeay , our products . But this was taken after all of them finishes their meal , so ya .

After that , we all sat down in the living room to chit chat about everything , started to feel abit of emotional already .
We started to do cleaning up for the chalet and all , after that some went back to their own room and some were still hanging around in the living room , so was i .
Sat at the sofa the whole night . Half asleep half awake .
Ziwei said that he were at the living room wide awake . He saw me stoning down there , but i never even noticed his existance at all . How hilarious . He actually succeeded in trying to pretend as ghost xp !

Day Four

The last day is here , unfortunately .
Do the last checking and all , and waited for the Aloha Loyang person to come and check before we can booked out .

Here amin goes again , asking me to add the facebook of that aloha loyang guy.
LOL . This is part and parcel of E35E jokes .

Went out to somewhere near Pasir Ris Mrt . Sat down at the food court and started chit chatting Some checked their classes , and the emotions came .
Changing of class , everyone's emotional about it . Some teared , the silence really hurts .

this marks the end of E35E journey for semester one .
we're no longer a class anymore , not anymore .

miss all the stick mans , the singings , the teasing of one another , and all the random craps .
it's all meant something to me .
i gave up something for e35e and i believe i wont regret .

Phobia2

2009-09-25T14:35:00.004+08:00

Watched Phobia2 w Malcolm yesterday over at AmkHub .
Phobia1 have 4 stories and Phobia2 have 5 stories . LOL .
Overall , still not that bad . The last story is funny [:
Rate it 2.5 out of 5 for horror shows !

UT results is outtt tooo !
Many are busy calculating their GPA .
My grades ain't that good ! But i passed though .

Arghh man , my face condition is terrible now , super .
I need a month to recover ): Save me .

21092009 ♥

2009-09-23T19:00:00.003+08:00

Yooohooooo ! (: Here i am again ~
Ahhh , long long time ever since i posted hurr .
Wanted to waitt till my celebration is over then blog , muhahahahahahha :D

I wanted to say ...

MICHELLE HAD A GREAT 18TH BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION WITH ALL THE LOVELIES ! :D

and all THANKS to JOCIE OH LI LING with did a really GREAT JOB in doing all the PLANNING and SURPRISING me throughout the whole day (:

My birthday goes like this ...

When the clock strike twelve , i began to receive birthday wishes from my friends by sms , msn , facebook , email , blog , and as well as call .
And also not forgetting Malcolm , Jocie , Derrick spamming me with many many birthday message .
Malcolm - 39 Jocie - 61 Derrick - 55

THANKS HORR ._. ( lucky my phone never hang , wahahahahahaha )

Oh and ZiWei called me at about eleven plus near twelve.
He called me and told me to go out of my house at twelve to collect my birthday present.
At first, i thought he's playing some prank on me.
But yeah, at about twelve plus i went out.
And there's really one envelop and one red box placed outside my doorstep.
THANK YOU !

And i just spent the rest of the time replying to those messages (:

Next day 21092009 .

I received a text from Jocie giving me instructions on the amazing race .
And also clue to let me guess where to find them at the first station !
First station - Novena !
Station master - Malcolm Elliot

Second station - Orchard !
Station master - Lesden Zolene
Due to me finishing the task given to me in first station fast , i reached the second station early . At about 1.40pm i am already there with Jocie's sister ( the camera man for the day ) . But but but , the station master only arrived at 230pm . Damn irritating hor ? Lol , kidding x.x

Pictures took when i'm on task :D

I've to find people and take photos with them . So there you go (:

Third station : Douby Ghaut !
Station master : Ziwei Alexis Jodie
Went to Cathy and go on with the task assigned .
First , Alexis thought of going to ask one taxi uncle to drive us to Woodlands but FOC using the excuse of its my birthday today . But the first uncle we met was bloody rude !

He said : Why should i say happy birthday ? I dont want to say .
We were all stunned . And he keep repeating that he have to change shift already .

DAMN HIM OK ! SUCH A TERRIBLE ASS ! curse curse curse him !

Okay, but then we went to ask another uncle , he's kind enough to offer us the ride (:

Thankyou Uncle . Wish you have many many customer yeah !

Then there's one thing i must do before i could get the clue to go to the next station and that is standing still and not moving for 10mins . Damn many people were looking at me and Jodie standing down there . I swear its damn embarrassing lahh ._.

But thanks JODIE for standing there with me for like >10 minutes

Last station - Habourfront !
Task - To find Jocie OH LI LING .

Vivo is like so big lahs , i won't even know where is she hiding .
But i am like too lazy to search every place , so i trust my intuition and go straight to the open space at the highest level . And magically , SHE'S THERE ! :D (dating horrrrr)

And im surprised by the HAMBURGER she bought ! Its amazing (: ! She texted me in the morning saying that this year budget abit , hamburger to represent cake . Then in the end , omgod , LOOK !

And all the other presents shared by them :D

Oh oh , and the classssss ~

So so so , photos taking !

The reason why the below photos are like that is ALL because of MALCOLM'S lousy photography skills . All the photos he take DAMN BLUR , out of focus . So no choice have to become like that . If not really ah , not presentable ah . Tsk ! Wasted ):

OH LASTLY , i wanted to show you all this !

CREDIT TO AMIN (: and others !

other photos will be uploaded at facebook :D
and and and you guys can refer to Jocie's blog for MORE details .
http://the-chubbygirl.blogspot.com
wahahahahahahahahahaha :D

OH YA . I WANNA SAY ....

THANKS TO HER !
Oppps , can you guys recognise her ?
She's the one that did the most thing for my birthday celebration !

Okay , before she started screaming at me , i better put one nice photo of her (: !
- TADA ! LET'S WELCOME JOCIE OH LI LING -

BIG enough ?

She's the one that make this all happen . Im really grateful to her . Thankyou for making my 18th birthday such a memorable one ! Thankyou :D !

Ok , shall stop here .
Goodbye!

10 .

Surprises

2009-09-16T11:52:00.004+08:00

5 more days ..

I'm looking forward to it .

I got one thing strike out from my wishlist already , cause i got it ;D
It's my red cammy from my fav brand , Samsng :D woooohoooo !
Well , its birthday present from mummy this year cause i wanted it so muchhhhhh .
Thankyou !

It's my off day yesterday .
Met up with Jocie and Malcolm yesterday .
Dinner over at Sakae Sushi .
Mal wanted to go arcade , so we went with him .

But while waiting for him to finish his games , me and Joice walked around the arcade .
And found one retard singing machine , so we played with it .

Insert coins and the machine will hum a song . Ah , so amazed ><

***

I spent my working time over at OG orchard point (Somerset) looking at handbags .

And there's this bag from Baby Phat that's nice (:
And there's only one in the whole of Singapore !
Plus that there's now having sale . Ohmy , so tempting . Told mummy , but she says she won't get it for me cause i have far too many hangbags >< ! Ah , i am going to get it myself soon i think . Hope its not sold out yettt :x Baby Phat TW 6139 , its white in color :D $159//- - This is bad . I just canceled one from my wish-list and now i am adding one back in -

Out with ♥ later hopefully .

i miss you

2009-09-10T21:56:00.002+08:00

hello people , i am here again .
ah , actually i have nothing much to blog about today , so it gonna be a short post i think :p

today morning , went to meet mal for breakfast nearby my house , and chatted for a couple of hours , then i went back home cause i feel too sleepy and mal went to rp for some meeting thingy .
and yeah , waited for mummy to come back then headed out to tampiness >.<

over at her friend's place , and i dontknow why am i asked to tag along . met a few young aunties and their child . had dinner with daddy at tampiness and get him to drive us back home . so currently , i am in car on my way home ~ phew , like finally ...

oh yeah , today before going to tampiness , got daddy to drive me to the family doctor . got a check on my skin irritation . but i got so helpless after the consultation , it's totally shitty , its like totally ah !

dr serene says that since i am allergic to antibiotics , so she cant give me any to consume and it will take a few months to recover . this is like wtf , ah man , suffer :x
breakouts breakouts breakouts ! more and more until two month later .
arghh , how am i going to step out of my house like that ? and and and what happens to my birthday . damnnnn , i can't even have nice birthdayyyyyyy with lots and lots of phototakingg ):
- i cant believe i spent hundred plus bucks to know this , hope i recover soon manxsz -

' people , if i tends to reject you to go out , its partially because of this ok !

ah ok , i shall stop here . mood-less lahh . bye !

oh ya check this out , asked t watched by czw . its nice , he says so .
http://videomahzeni.blogspot.com/2009/09/dalis-kazasi-sonuna-kadar-mutlaka.html

* i did not met up with ♥ for a couple of days alreadyy ): MISSES !

Adores ♥

2009-09-09T15:18:00.006+08:00

ok , it've been ages ever since i blogged .
days are getting better and better since the last post of mine .
i'm happy , really really happy .

okay , i have got alot of things to blog but i cant remember when it happen so yeay , im gonna post but events posted are not in sequence : D

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firstly , i finally met up with ♥
we headed over to vivo city and shopped .
Actually wanted to go check out my red cammy . but , mummy says she is over at another place to check out , so i leave it to her then .
but well , knowing that leaving it to my mum , i definitely won't be able to get my camera which is red in colour . ahhhh !
okay , anyway , after losing the aim of going over to vivo city .
we are just walking aimlessly around the mall . and even worst , we spend a couple of hours hanging in a bookstore . but luckily the book store is really big enough for us to spend our time there . and yeay , its not even a lil bit of boring cause i had fun crapping about everything there (: hohohos .

* all this lil things make us a step nearer to each other .

oh and i am not forgetting that asss , trying to get me go under the sun when i'm wearing all black cause of my work . its so damn hot on that day luh , that mean monster , hmpf >< ! well well , i have to get home early that night to have dinner with family , so we headed back home after all those fun we had . * though its a short day , but it's really a nice day outt . & i swear i wont want to go outt with him ever again wearing all BLACK ._.

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secondly, malcolm's bbq day !
was pretty ok though . knew a friend of his aftr the bbq . lol !
this is like you know random , didnt really talk to the friend of his at bbq but in the end , get to know each other . all because malcolm's fault lah , though i dontknow whyyyy ;x

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thirdly , about elliott .
okay , he get me to blog about him , so here you go elliott , ABOUT YOU !
hahaha , ok , i think im done : D lalalads ~
* ps , cause i cant remember what i wanted to blog , so yeahhhhh *

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next up , malcolm's birthday celebration with jocie and co !
ah well , i didnt join them in the day cause i have something on .
so yeap , were having my dinner at home so i met them only after dinner .
only jocie knew i am going =p
met up with jocie , run a big round to get the cake and hiding from the others .
surprise mal and took photos with the group ~
i went to join them late , so im in super casual outfit :D

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here you go people :D

group photos belowwwww :D

and and and and and ..

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♥
finally , i get to stop counting on the days .
the last one was day sixteen , when i'm still hoping that i could feel your existence .
but however , my wish upon the stars works .
thankyou .
today is the 09.09.0.9 , i wanted to tell the people i treasured how important they are and i much i love them (:
♥ got my text yesterday night .
& i gotten a few text back too
read ♥'s blog . awesome post my dear .

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ℓσνє.
some said its a game .
some said its just for fun .
some said being love is better than loving others .
some said its stupidity .
some said its exciting .
some said its challenging .
some said that its boring .
etc .

but to all of you reading , what is ℓσνє to you ?

how do you measure love ?

which type person is worth the wait ?
defining happiness ?

all these questions is often being doubted .

but trust me people , i am not going to answer and not expecting an answer .
i blogged this , not because i am bothered by ℓσνє , and all because of one of my dear friend .

he's seriously getting so stuck . i couldn't say that he's in love , because it doesn't seems that he is . but all i could say that he gets so emotional and bothered about it , i hope he's alright real soon .
friend , love is something that takes time to understand .
do not ever because of once failure , you decided to give up and stop loving .
this isn't the right way friend , look at the brighter side ok :D
upon knowing the answer that you wanted to know all along, and if you already decided you are going to give up and not wait anymore , then don't think about it ever . you can lie to everyone of us that you don't love anymore , but you can't lie to yourself . i bet you still feels upset about it . but anyway anyway , good luck to you : D

* ps hurr , actually i've got alot more to say . but i forgotten cause im multi-tasking . so yeah , i will blog about it again if i remember ;D

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i love surprises .

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you're all kinds of awesome , big bully !

Happy Birthday Mr Green Sotong.

2009-09-01T21:07:00.005+08:00

Monday , 31st August 2009 - Day fifteen .
Let the pictures speaks for itself . Not in a mood to blog everything out so detailed .

* do we blend into the recycle bin ? HAHA *

* Me and Jocie together with Aizat's birthday card *

* taken by RonNPT when he's playing with my camera ._. *

* candid shot done by RonNPT (: *

* Mr green sotong's birthday cake *

* Mr Green Sotong dressed in Green top and Green slippers holding on to Green Birthday card and presents :D *

* featuring zw and erdie *

* LAST BUT NOT LEAST , MR ASHWIN :D *

♥
when you show me your displeased

Tuesday , 1 Sept 2009 - Day Sixteen .

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MR GREEN SOTONG !

Texted him a birthday message right on twelve :D
And he replied me with a super long message . Cool mooooosxz .

♥
when i thought everything is doing great .
then i realised it's actually not .
i'm so foolish to believe that there can be something done without a purpose .
i was doing great when someone that care asked about us , i responded w/o saying much but showing that things are well .
and wishfully thinking that we'll be as good even if we're not together .
that's so wrong of me .
i finally knew , the reasons of why you have been contacting me not long ago .
i didn't know how to react , cause im both happy and sad .
i am happy because i know i am not the only one that is still loving .
i am sad because i think that if its not because of this , you wouldnt even bother to contact anymore .
but however however , you get me not to reply you , so i didnt reply .
perhaps perhaps , that was the last message btwn us .
and now knowing that you will read my blog , so i think that i shouldnt say much to stop you from turning away .
because , i believe , there's a brighter future for you ahead .
someone better waving to you , i dreamt .
i shouldn't be so selfish to keep you by me when i don't treasure right , serve me right on this .
so much of unwillingness , i have to let go .
i used to hold on to you , unless you tell me to let go .
but this time round its different ..
i am lettiing my hands off , unless you tell me not to , cause you know i am unwilling to forget
love with your heart and not your brain , and i know deeply how much i feel about all this .
if you love me , tell me not to leave , please .
so much so much of a contradiction , i wanted to type everything of this hoping it will be good if it come true , but yet hope you didnt see all this . such a dumb person i am .

love does not leave when it is bid farewell .

i am such a fool , i swear .

If this could last a lil longer

2009-08-30T21:40:00.006+08:00

DAY FOURTEEN
Hey people . You guys must be wondering why am i here again yeah .
Well , it have been such a long time ever since i blogged continuously for two days .
Okay , the reason why i am here is because i am happy ;D i think i just came back from dreamland !

Today , i started working again . Orchard Paragon Metro (:
Was a bit reluctant to go for work at first because i know it gonna be very boring plus that its raining early in the morning :x
But yeay , i still went ..
Started work and nothing much interesting . Couldn't have my phone placed with me so i put it in my bag and handed over to the security point ><
All the way till break , i then get the chance to checked my phone .
Checked my phone and realized that there are so many messages , so i took the break time t reply to all messages . After replying all messages , i am quite disappointed cause i thought about the wish i made yesterday to the stars and in my blog and eventually it never happen .

Just about when i am going to give up and stop thinking , i received a message .
I saw the name of the sender , and i stunned , totally .
My wish came true , for a second , i thought i am dreaminggg .
My heart beat twice faster than usual when opening the message , cause i thought it would be nothing good :x But yeay , its nothing bad , not that very good too .

Anyway , replied a lil and then have t head back to work already .
So yeay , it ended like that ><
Was pretty satisfied with my work today cause i sold several expensive bags :D
Michelle is tired but happy :D

♥
Though its just a simple hello , i think its enough .
That 11 simple messages you have sent me , to you may be only random , but you never know , it meant a lot to me .
Cause , i still miss you like always .

~ wishing upon the stars works .

* to someone really nice but i let down on *
i am sorry , really sorry .
sorry for dashing your hopes just like that .
i don't want to , but i have to .
don't wish to have you wasting your time on me , move on ok :D
we will still be friends like before yeps , i promise , for sure .
jokes and craps , what we are best at , is something that we will never stop doing .
i don't hope that there will be awkward moments between us alrightt (:
things as usual ok :D see you soon .

You're the reason why i tear

2009-08-29T19:06:00.011+08:00

Hello people . I am here to update again :D

27th Aug 2009 , Thursday - Day Eleven
Went job-hunting with Jocie . Met her up at Bishan Junction 8 and go for the first interview there .
But high chance of not getting the job , and well . We went to Mac and had a drink as well as searching in the newspaper . Called and all , then went for interviews at different places .
In the end , got a job of selling handbags .
It's just like the job that i used to work , but this time different company .
I am thinking whether i should work because the pay isn't that good . But if i were to work , its all because of killing boredom and trying to keep myself occupied doing something so that i won't think so much . Anyway , shall just see .
Some other funny things happened .
- details please go to jocie's blog for more cause i am too lazy to type everything out -
http://the-chubbygirl.blogspot.com
(PS. shun bian help her promote abit ><

♥
i am making it a point to forget .
but eventually , i never stop thinking .

28th August 2009 , Friday - Day Twelve

its SA Appointment Ceremony :D
Ohman , i am like getting so nervous but i dontknow why .
I think it's partially because of i have no idea what to wear on that day .
So i started preparing quite early (doing my hair etc.)
And yeay , i just close my eyes and random picked out one dress to wear .
Headed to meet the girls and keith at woodland's pizza hut .
They had lunch and all , after that headed to school .
I was whining away because i think i look really weird , even have the thought of not going .
I basically went crazy , cause i feel super weird though as the girls are dressed in formal , as in formal wear .
Met yunzhen at the bus interchanged , and headed to school together (:
Finally , i managed to drag my feet all the way to school .
Reached the place , and find it not that bad already :D
Thanks SAMC 08/09 .. Welcome SAMC 09/10 .. Trivia games .. SA year one appointment .. Awards giving .. Photo taking ..
Lots more things happened , but overall , its a good evening , a really good evening (:

Met up with Mal after that then head over to causeway point while waiting for Jocie and Elliot to join us for dinner . Waited for like one and plus plus hours . After dinner , headed back home x)

♥
after so long , it still feels the same when i saw you .
looking you at the back from far , its enough , i think .
actually , about it , i feels the same too , you know .

29 August 2009 , Saturday - Day Thirteen
A tiring day . But great day (:
Lazy to elaborate . So yeah !
Tomorrow will be a dreadful day . Hais >< ♥ a lil not over you , still .
i am not longer smiling like how i used to ..
it's because of you , i smile .

♥
you're the reason why i am able to forget my past so quickly . but now , i've to forget you as well , this doubles the pain .
i wish , i wish , i wish .
i look into the few hundreds message i had in my phone , and hope that there will be one from you again .
wonder when will be the day , among my so many message a day , i will see one from you .
not possible ever again , i think .

Last day with E35E

2009-08-26T17:28:00.011+08:00

It have been quite some time ever since i blogged , though not very long but yeah .

23rd August 2009 , Sunday - Day Seven
Went out with Mummy to AmkHub .
Came back at night and started to revise Maths together with ZW and Mal .
All the way till 2am .

♥
if we were still ..

24th August 2009 , Monday - Day Eight
Maths UT .
Ah , shrucks . Knew how to use excel programme but didn't know when to apply .
This is shittttt , ha . But it's over , so don't bother : D
Stayed back in school and study for communication awhile .
Went for a walked at Admiralty park with them and decided to head home after that .
Was damn tired , bath-ed and fell asleep all the way till i got awake by the phone call from Mal .
Chatted online with friends and at the same time decorating the farewell card for teresa . I wanted it make it as different as possible and i hope she like it =)
It's the last paper tomorrowww . Communication ><

♥
congratulations in advanced , cause i know i won't be able to congrats you on that day itself . you know what i meant , i suppose .
do it well , you will shine .
silent support .

25th August 2009 , Tuesday - Day Nine
Stepping into the class , seeing E35E lovelies all nicely dressed up =) -clap-
After UT , stayed behind to take photos , a hell lot of photos .
View it in facebook , people :D

BELOVED E35E <3>

Suppose to meet SA people for the payment of the teeshirt at 1230 and go for briefing for Jive . But yeay , were late cause we were all busy taking photos and having fun till we forgot that we have to attend all these things .

I LIKE THIS PHOTO <3 style="text-align: left;">After briefing, went to meet them at the south foodcourt :D

And that mafan jocie had to go home to change her shorts and also put her laptop at home ><

Headed to Cini . Watched Orphan (:

But we had fun camwhoringggg :D ~ Pictures will be uploaded in facebook too !
Headed for dinner after 715 .
Chatted and played a prank on Ron .

We reserved him a seat , and placed tissuepaper and chilli in front of the empty seat where he supposed to sit . Then after when we're done with our meal , Malcolm wanted to take the tissue from Ron . I stopped him .. .. ..

Michelle : Eh , wait wait wait .
Malcolm : Huh ? Why ?
Michelle : You got ask Ron first anort , anyhow take his tissue . Tsk !
Malcolm : LOL ?
Michelle : Go call Ron and ask first ! >< Jocie : Yeah , call call .
Michelle : -calling-
Malcolm : 'Hello. We take your tissue ah' -pass phone back to me-
Others : Laughing !
Michelle : 'Hello? Eh , we take your tissue liao hor , okay ah , bye !' -without allowing him to say anything , i end the call :x

Awhile after that .. .. ..

ringringring- RON CALLING ! (note: my ringtone is not like that though, haha)

Michelle : Hello ? Yes Ron ? Laughs .
Ron : Hey , just now what you ask me ah ? -blurrr-
Michelle : Oh , haha , nothing lah , were just asking for your permission to take your tissue .
Ron : Hah ? You want tissue ?
Michelle : Yeah , but we took alreadyyy .
Ron : But , i don't have tissue now leh .
Michelle : LOL , nevermind , we take from you alreadyy ah !
Ron : Whattt? ok . LOL . Change topic .
Michelle : -laughingggg- continue to talk .

The call go on .. .. ..

Conclusion :
Haha , How smart he is lah . Still can say that he doesn't have tissue now . Like as if he have , he can pass to us eh . LOL . This is what happen when you didn't come with us :D We're nice people, we remember you even when you're not with us :D

RON NG POH TECK promise me that he will go out with us during the holiday !
If he lie , tsk tsk tsk . He's gonna be so dead . Muhahahahaahhaa :D

Jocie headed home after that .

We continue-d to walked around ION . And we saw Alexis , Lynn , Ida , Jodie , Lesden . Walked around with them then headed to Takashimaya , cause they wanted to eat durian pancake . But yeay , when we reached there , shop closed . So went back ION and took picturesss :D

26th August 2009 , Wednesday - Day Ten
Stayed at home . Blogging .
The lyrics for 'Fall For You' , how nice .
I officially start holiday from today onwards ! Book-ed me asap :D

counting down ..
TWO DAYS TO SA APPOINTMENT CEREMONY
EIGHT DAYS TO JIVE CAMP
TEN DAYS TO MALCOLM'S BIRTHDAY BBQ
TWENTY-THREE DAYS TO PRIS.W BIRTHDAY
TWENTY-FIVE DAYS TO BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY
TWENTY-SIX DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY
TWENTY-SEVEN DAYS TO HANPING'S BIRTHDAY
THIRTY-TWO DAYS TO CHALET

etc .

♥
i miss you , still .
i've one month to myself before school starts , i think i shall make use of this time to forget .
goodbye .

Random drawings by CZW

2009-08-22T17:41:00.007+08:00

trying to draw his display picture . but FAILED . lol .

what a face ._.

poo poo ~ eeew .

sarcastic drawing uh !
this is when i got sun-tanned after SA welfare day .
and they saw me with red back so they started saying I'm a lobster
and this is how this RED stickman came about . RANDOM !

Had a long chat Kenneth ' SA on the phone just now :D
As usual , he doesnt say HELLO .
So this time he started by : Pizza Hut Delivery ... ...
And so on ...
Singing , Jokes , Craps and everything were what we talked about .
Old-ies and that's HIM .
Just plainly because of boredom . HAHA .

Ah , before someone says that my blog is always emo .
And started to draw my blog with hands and leg so that i could blog itself even with me not updating .
So i decided to post this :D
This post is notttttt emo okay ! HAHA -i win-

MICHELLE IS A HAPPY GIRL , she wish . LOL

if only everyday could be like this x)

Hot and cold .

2009-08-22T12:04:00.003+08:00

PHOTOS IS UPLOADED IN FACEBOOK : D

20.08.2009 Thursday . Fourth day w/o you .
Its Science UT today . Wasted my time studying , hais .
After UT , stayed in school for awhile to 'revise' cognitive .
Went back home and have a super long sleep .
Set alarm and wake up at twelve to send YUJUAN her BIRTHDAY msgg x)
After that , went back to sleep again : D

♥
i saw you in my dreamland , and how i wish the sleep could last forever .

21.08.2009 Friday . Fifth day w/o you .
Cognitive and Problem Solving UT . Not enough time to finishhhh ~

Its YUJUAN birthday today : D

* photo source credit to , JOCIE OH LI LING .
E35E had a mini celebration with her in class after UT (:
All the best to her !

After that headed to play pool with jocie , malcolm , wenting , jieying and nadya .
It've been sucha longg time ever since i played pool , but yeay , we still had fun relearning everything , haha !
Lesden , Aizat , Ziwei joined us ltr on .
Taking a break , so i played music from the laptop because the place is so damn lousy , NO MUSIC ! at most , we can hear is meowwwww ~ which we don't know where is it from ;x
So i become the music player for that moment ._.
Headed to the hawker center after that , some had their dinner and all , while me lesden and ziwei at the other table having random chatts ;D

Part I .
Michelle : Eh , why your ball become blue colour , not orange one meh ?
Lesden : I bleach it .
Michelle : Don't bluff ah , where can bleach one . HOW ?
Lesden : Can , you bleach already than put colourings .
Michelle : -thinking thinking thinking -

Part II .
Lesden started saying : Blueberry jam is blue colour .
Michelle : Heh ? No lor , its purple whatttt !
Lesden : Its BLUE .
Michelle : - turned and asked jocie and co , what colur is blueberry jam ?
Jocie & co answered : Purpleeee .
Lesden : If it's purple , then why is it call BLUEberry ?
Jocie : Its purple lah .
Lesden : Then why not call it purpleberry instead ?
Michelle : Cause blueberry sounds nicer , if nott purpleberry like v weird mah , no meh ?
Lesden : Speechless .

Part III .
Michelle is still thinking about the bleaching thing and started asking ..
Michelle : Ehs , if you bleach then will become white color mah , then why still have the eyes and mouth (FYI : the eyes and mouth is part of the design of the keychain )
Lesden : wondering why bleach will become white ?
Michelle : The bleach white color whatt , if you put it inside then come out white colour lorh .
Lesden : Bleach is TRANSPARENT , not WHITE .
Michelle : Anyhow ah you , where got transparent . Its white lor , i see my mum put the shirt inside to bleach then come out very white lehhh .
Lesden : Nooooooo . Bleach is TRANSPARENT . Go back check .
Michelle : - still doubting - Really meh ? Okay , i'll go bck and check .
Silent ... ... ...
Michelle : Eh , but how you bleach already the eyes and mouth still there ?
Lesden : Its printed on , so wont kena bleach away .
Michelle : - still doubting whether it is true - Eh , bleach it to green then monday let me seeee .
Lesden : Okay lo .
Michelle : - thinking whether can one mehhh , hmpf -

* Laughs , there are alot more random chats lah , and till now i am still thinking about how to bleach that thing ._. i felt so cheated , hahahahaha . Better don't let me find out it's FAKE ! Wahahahahahahaahahahha x)

I HAVE A GOOD DAY TODAY . - 1 month away from my birthday -

♥
when i am nice to someone , it doesn't mean that i fancy them .
because it doesn't mean that only when you fancy someone , you be nice to them x)
the daily routine : thinking of you .

22.08.2009 Saturday . Sixth day w/o you .
Its a saturday today ! Woohooooo ~
Time to update my blog , and i am doing it now : D
I don't plan to go anywhere todayyy . Cause i told myself , must study for MATHS .
But yeay , expected , i wont be studying ._. HAHA .
This song - Hot and Cold is nicee : D

♥

isn't this so contradicting ? yes , contradict is just the right word for me now .
i want to know you again , i really do .

A whole new world w/o you

2009-08-20T01:17:00.004+08:00

Sunday. Day one.
Stayed at home, the whole day.
How amazing, i cant believe it myself either ._.

you're still in my mind.

Monday. Day two.
Cognitive module.
Enterprise CE talk.
; Boringgggg. I am dumb enough to copy down notes when the slides is actually given to us :x I didnt know till the last few problem. Good job Michelle =.=
Jack came to RP, lunch-ed with him, Jocie, Malcolm and Yongjian.
Headed back home with Jack and Yongjian [:

trying to forget, move on.

Tuesday. Day three.
' Last day of lesson in E35E with E35E ❤lies '
Module : Enterprise
Great day! Sad atmosphere.
Two new faci came in, think they wanted to see how PBL learning is like, they are new to RP ;D
Victor were nice enough to order us pizzassss ~
And we took a lot a lot a lot of photos :) Shall update soon.
Before third meeting, the guys did something funny.
They brought in the tables that is outside the class, the dustbins, and the plants ! LOL .
Well, third meeting start.
Our group added some notes to the class after out presentation.
I teared halfway thru presenting, embarassing. But yeay, don't bear to leave them is still the fact. So on and on, a few others teared too.
After school, took alot more photos.
Then headed back home ;D

'' I ❤ E35E'09 ''

To all E35E lovelies, thanks for being a part of my journey in RP.
Seriously RP will sucks big times without you guys.
All the fun times we all had, will become one of the best memories i'd in my life.
Its just 15 weeks, and the class is so bonded together.
Having the thought of parting with each other and going on to a new class real soon, it upset the heart and started the tears.
But whatever it is, we cant changed this fact, so please, do cherish and enjoy till the last day.
Looking forward to chaletttttt ;D

" I SWEAR ''

At night, started to revise for enterprise with meowsxz.
Started doing presentation to each other for each problem.
Meow went off at arnd 3 am, then i continue crapping with ron.
Slept at 4 plus. Goodday !

the perfume smell of that new faci reminds me of you.
but i realised, its all over.
and everything have become just memories.

Wednesday. Day three.
Had Enterprise UT today.
It's not very difficult, but i have alot of careless mistakes.
Damn, all the calculation questions will be WRONG!
It's SCIENCE tomorrow, shitness.
Stayed in school and study awhile, but NOTHING goes into my head.
So decided to go back home and study again.
And now, currently taking a break from studying and update my blog.
I AM SO GONNA FLUNK MY SCIENCE , i swear .

now i miss you like how you used to miss me,
but do you miss me like how i miss you.

Bball day & the long awaited SA Welfare Day (:

2009-08-16T11:18:00.004+08:00

Woohoooo . Its weekend alreadyy . And it’s time for me to update again .
On Friday , had maths module .
It’s so easy that we completed the worksheet and ppt in the second meeting .
So during the lunch break , we went outt of school to eat ;D (Chung, jocie gf , ziwei , Malcolm , Ron)
After having our lunch , we realised that it’s still early so we went back school and walked around , visited several places like the sports complex ._. HAHA .
After school , went to play bball with malcolm , jocie and elilot . As usual , its very tiring but yet fun . Some funny stuffs happened in between like
- malcolm trying to bounce the ball back by hitting it on the wall but in the end kena hit by the ball straight on his stomach .
- And jocie trying to snatch the ball from malcolm but in the end scratch his face .
- And elilot behaving like cockroach when I got the ball .
- Not forgetting the part where malcolm and elilot jumped together when I trying to shoot . (only we know)
Well, there’s some weird and irritating things that happened though just like
- My blister getting worst
- And my legs and hands hurt hell lots
- And in between the game , while we were having rest , I went out to refill water for jocie’s water bottle . There’s this two guys , one Chinese one Indian that stand behind me . Then I thought that they are Q-ing for the water cooler thingy also .
So I turned and say : Sorry ah , give me a minute .
Then they say : No actually can we have your number ?
I was like heh ? for what ?
They answered : Cause my friend says he want to know you , so ask If he can have your number . The one there that never wear shirt de .
I was stunned , and thought it’s a prank at first so I continued filling up the bottle then say : Oh , haha . Then I faster walked away .
After that continue playing bball till when we are going off , and there's this one guy standing at the vending machine there saying Hi , then ask me for walk over , but i pretend never see then walk away with jocie and co . LOL .
That guy said : Wah sian . She pretend never see me .
But fact is , i really cant see clearly ah . LOLOLOL !
Went to sport complex and bathhhhhh ;D refreshhhing !
This is the last game before UT .

Saturaday . SA Welfare Day .
Suppose to meet Keith at YCK mrt station at 750 .
But he says that he will be late so meet at 800 instead .
Then waited and waited for him to say that his train is leaving AMK .
But then by the time i recieve his msg , the train that he's in already left ._.
So i took the next train and meet him at Khatib instead , wahahahaahahahh !
Reached woodlands and waited for others to arrive (: Took bus over to East Coast .
Met up with others that came from Bedok . Walked there ..
Had a few games at there , quite funnn ;D
Then we had our own games , took pictures and blahblahblah .
Evil people tried to get me and linda darlingg down the water . At first they scare us only , but at the later part they used forceee . We struggled and struggled using all methods to get away . But yeah , luckily we did it ;D LOL . Sorry people , if i've been rough . HOHOHO ;D
Had fun and all , homeeee-d .
And i have got a tann-ed heart shape at my back . Damnnn , i'm tann only at my back ._. When i dont even want to get tann at all ><>
Pictures will be uploaded on facebook soon (:

Today is sunday , and i am staying at home .
Mummy's cooking lunch for me ;D
It's mummy's birthday on TUESDAYYYYY !

We make a better friends than lovers .
So letting go may not be a bad thing to both you or me .
Because we're just not meant to be . -lovers .
The love story of us ended here , may all the best for you and your future . GoodLuck .
Thanks for being part of my life . You're remembered .
Upon seeing you once again , i hope we still could be friends .

2009-08-08T14:15:00.010+08:00

Hello people , it have been quite some time that I blogged .
So now , here I am trying to update it ;D
Okay , I have to say all these days have been really great for me , all the fun times with E35E lovelies , gf & co and moo moo .
Well , sorry to say , I can’t really remember all the things I have done for each single day for the past week , so I’m not gna blog in detailed .

Came school late for cognitive with ZW .
Class were wearing Red & White , Hahs . COOL !
Lesson were fine at first , all until when the judging part start .
Well , its quite disheartening to know that there are actually people that cant get over comments given by others . Overall , being judge is never a good thing when facing people that you adores . Its not as easy as you think our job is , people . Stop thinking only about yourself and winning the competition , its so hard giving rates when we have to put aside biasness and yet thinking about the feelings that you guys might have if we were being truthful to ourselves . Arghhh , forget it . Its over though .

catched 'UP' movie with JocieGf and Malcolm at causeway point after the rubbish "war" with part of e35e lovelies in class . fun people , fun play , fun day ! At least my day in class ended off well .
nice movie , the character damn cute luhs ;D

And the below three pictures shows some of the different of STICKMAN ;O

- Conclusion drawing done by ZW aftr seeing how i draw my stickman -

- This is how my stickman looks like . Its original and copyrighted .

- The stickman drew by him , and claimed to be the original look of stickman . Haaaa .

All the stickman talks , and i have been drawing many many things on ZW's exercise book on thursday . And continuation of drawing my own creation of stickman on Yujuan's book on friday ;D LOL . I drew outt the different team member in stickman but differently ;P Sadly , i didnt take a picture of it . Hohohos .

After all those happy times , there's bound to be a bad one .
At the moment that i thought that my life have been doing good so far , i realized that i was wrong , so wrong .
Facing seperation , its once again here .
Even before i could start making a step closer , it failed badly , very .
Its always never be able to have the best of the both world , never for me .
Or perhaps , its just not meant to be .
I tried , but it failed , again and again .
爱. 不就是要包容对方吗?
为什么我就是不能拥有别人口中的爱.

To love or be loved ?
Its another topic i shall talk about the next time i update.

I yearn for a fairytale like love.
Where ? Who ? When ? ... ... ...

- Im heading outt to meet ZW , shall update again (:

2009-08-02T19:42:00.006+08:00

* drew by CHEN AH WEI on msn *

Have been staying at home all these along.

Feeling really really bored though. SMS-ing. TV-ing. ONLINE-ing. etc.

Its really BORINGGG x(

Flipped through that particular cupboard of mine and saw the birthday presents that i recieved last year.

Memories brought back ..

Spent sometime looking through it, all the birthday cards and books, all done specially in their own way.

It's really sweet, because all these people knowing that i love surprises shown it through different ways.

Its still so touching reading through all those long and sweet birthday message .. ..

And realised its all the past.

Chatted with Jack, the used to name Caifeng on msn.

And i told him about the secondary school memories that rushed to my mind after looking through my stuffs, then he showed me quite a number of secondary school photos taken

Im missing every single moment in secondary school right now.

I dont mind going back in time, if i can even for just a few mintues.

I miss everyone that were used to be there.

Everything , everything ..

Will blog moreeeeee next time ;D

*5C'08 <3 *

Though im thinking about the past ..

You're still not forgotten ..

2009-08-01T19:29:00.002+08:00

My body is aching all over, seriously.
I dontwant to eat patient's food everyday ><
I dontwant to stay home 24 hours anymore!
I want to update my blog with long post ..
I want to get well real soon =X

i want you to know :

Wants.

2009-07-31T11:34:00.005+08:00

update again soon ..

Heart sayings:
i want you to be more caring, i want you to shower me with love, i want you to be by my side, i want you to be the one that i can turn to, i want you to understand me more, i don't want you to leave me with my friends, i know im greedy, & i know i don't deserve that. but that's what i want.

im not finding trouble, im sorry.
Im sorry if i've not been giving you good attitudes,
Headache is killing me, Maybe like you say, i deserved it.

And lastly ... .... i want to say

2009-07-30T15:49:00.002+08:00

27th July 2009, Monday
Enterprise was great, totally.
Other than the heels is killing me, its perfectly gooood (:
Took alot of photos and all, damn cooooooooool <3 ! (Its all in facebook)
Went for excel workshop after that.
It was damn boring luhs. The faci's hands work faster than he talked lahs.
He suppose to show us how should we use the excel. But instead, he done all the excel thing and started talking. So ridiculous. I didnt learnt much things though. Mr Aw bettter ;D !

28th July 2009, tuesday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIAQING (:
Module : Science - Biology
Its pretty fine ! Good day i suppose .
Cause i cant remember what i did on that day :x

29th July 2009, wednesday
Module : Communication
A bad day, totally.
Everyone is not feeling well, and not many turned up for school.
Took my temperature at the later part of the day, and realised that im actually running a fever ._. 38.6 degree celcius. How cool hurrrrr >< No wonder my head feels like its dropping on the floor lahs, ha!
Took a nap and ate panadol (Thanks JocieGf) before going for sports with the class.
Played soccer and basketball (: Though i looked so retarded whe playing. LOL.
Went back home with Jocie aftr that cause my head is exploding :X
- Thanks marcus for using cheering me up abit during classbreak
- Thanks everyone for concerning and asking about my condition
- Thanks ZiWei for providing me all the ways of dealing with fever. LOL! And also trying to 'threaten' me so that i have enough rest at home hurrr ;x HAHA!
- Thanks love for concerning toooooo.

30th July 2009, Thursday
Module : Mathematics
Met zolene at woodlands mrt station today.
Only Jieying, Daryl, Teresa and me came school today at first.
After at second meeting, Ron joined us (:
He damn LOL lah, before he come in class still text me to see if im in school. He said is because he wants to make sure he's not lonely in class. HAHAHAHAHA!
And realised that the five of us are from different group. So our ppt consists of five teams. Mr Aw is laughing like dontknow whattt >.<
Lesson ended pretty early today and Mr Aw went through all the problem very quickly as revision.
Maths new group.
Team 1 - Lesden Jieying Amin Ashwin Nadya
Team 2 - Michelle Jodie Ziwei Alexis Dee
Team 3 - Daryl Peishan Ida Jocie Chung
Team 4 - Teresa Iqbal Divya Lynn Priya
Team 5 - Ron Yujuan CX Aizat Wenting Erdie
Now blogging while waiting for SAGM to start ~

Thanks everyone for concerning about my sickness ;D
I will recover soon, i think (:

2009-07-26T15:02:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a good day overall .
Though at some unhappy things happening in the morningg . -Long story -
Well , after i managed to sneak out . Went to AmkHub to meet up with jocie and lesden .
Shopped around there and jocie tried on many many skirts o.o
Headed to orchard far east cause lesden wants t have a haircut .
And after visiting the salon , i fall sick .
Started to have flu and sore throat and blahh ;x So shit luhs !
Went off to meet ZhengJie at Cini .
Dinner then movieeee - Haunted in Conneticut .
Like finally i have the chance to watch this movie laaa . Its was goooooooooooooooooood :D
Thanks zhengjie for scaring me in btwn the movie hurrrr ._. Really freak out mansxz . LOL (:
After that headed back home :D

Enterprise tomorrow . And now i cant find all my clothes . Shit-ness .
And i dont have my damn phone with me . Arghhh .
worst still , i fallen sick =\

Ohyeah. People. Follow me on twitter. I update there very oftennnnn.
http://twitter.com/MichelleTLW ((:

2009-07-25T12:49:00.003+08:00

Heading out to meet Jocie and Lesden and maybe Malcolm ltr over at AmkHub.

You never understand .. .. ..

爱 , 真的能说明一切吗 ?

that's all.

2009-07-24T13:13:00.003+08:00

Wednesday, 22th July 2009
Happy Birthday Zolene :D ~
Birthday celebration with secondary friends.
- Jiaqing. Caifeng. Mingguan. Sokzhen. Wenhui. Ben. Roy. Ken. Boonwee. PriscillaWang.
Venue - Junction 8.

Thursday, 23th July 2009
Module: Maths
Topic: Whales
Three members in the team today. Had a tough time at first.
With the help of Mr Aw AGAIN, we manage to get it through and eventually problem statement solved :)
Overall, its pretty fine though. Haha.
After school, had celebration over at city hall for zolene's birthday but this time with poly friends - Lesden. Malcolm. CX. and supposingly Jocie suppose to join us, but some obstacles occurs ya.
Walked around, sat down and chatt.
Headed to Fish & Co for dinner.
Played some number games so not to waste food.
Because the one that lose have to finish some parts of the food and so on..
Went to the fountain of wealth. Dedicate songs and birthday wishes to zolene toooooo (:
Lovely view. I love it there mansxz :DD
Home to do RJ after that.

Friday, 24th July 2009
Module: Cognitive
Topic: Adopting a successful practice
Changed team for today. And having another change next week again ((:
We have a damn nice faci, she allow us to give her our preferrence of group members in RJ.
No plans after school.

Saturaday, 25th July 2009
Planning to head out with Jocie tomorrow in the afternoon to shop to look for clothes.
Meeting up with Zhengjie at night for movieeee. - The haunted in connecticut.
It have been quite some time ever since i met him ><
Good day tomorrow i hoped.

Misses.

2009-07-21T17:20:00.003+08:00

Monday 20th July 2009

Module : Enterprise
Topic : What comes next ?
Relief facilitator : Jovin Hurry

Summary : Team members didn't change because Victor didn't come. Was quite happy at first all until the true colors of this relief faci showed up. Our group was indecisive about choosing a leader because noone wants to be one. So in the end, Mr Jovin have to pick for us. And UN fortunately, i'm choosen ._. and Lesden's the script.
At first, i thought it would be not be that bad because as long we all work together as one, there isn't a need to pick the leader. But however, i am wrong this time. Jovin is very demanding and he expects alot from the class and even more from the team leaders. And he is stressing the team leader every now and then, getting us to have meeting with him and he will passed the message to us. And we have to let our team members be clear of what are they suppose to do. We somewhat acts like a messenger btwn him and the rest of the class.
However, this is just the starting of everything. Things became worst and more stressful in the later of the day. He started off by introducing himself and all, and now the class have been imitating him and what he says. Damn LOL. After that, he listed his expectations of us, and expect us to meet the standard. And he claimed that he will makes things different as required by us. Therefore, he planned to do something different in the 3rd meeting(this is what victor always do too) But, what he requires us to do is far too much.
1st getting down to the library to find 3 resources and read everything after that link back to what we are learning.
2nd presenting the things we have gone through in the worksheet.
3rd presenting things that he showed us but its out of the problem statement context.
4th required to come up with a learning map about what we think career planning is. (this is so damn difficult cause we have to be very very creative)
We are only able to finish part of it and we have to present it. And in the third meeting, he introduced us with the very formal way of presenting. Which all of us are still very not used to it and dont like it. My team suppose to present at the third but the previous two teams said that they really need somemore time so in the end we went first. And i am the first one that have to go through the awkward way of presenting, so lost eh. But anyway, manage to get through it (: LOL. Well, this is roughly about all. But yea, of course there is alot more to it.
Mr Jovin can be very random tooooooooo.
Early in the day, he told me that i have beautiful fingernails painting.
Later in the day, when he realised that actually my nail polish for my both hands are different, he said : Did you run out of colour so you painted two different colours for your hands ?
I was so stunt when he said that lah, cause its like out of sudden when he is checking our team worksheet and PDT. Then after when i replied him, he continued saying : If its not running out of nail polish then must be i paint in the night. Because at night too dark, i cant see clearly so just painted it like that. So LOL lahhhh! I mean like, shouldnt he be chcking on the wkst and PDT instead of my nail polish ._. We laughed like pretty much though. And next victim Priya and lots more funny things. Hahaha!
The day ended and then before he left he said this : Michelle, i think you can manage pressure pretty well and can be push further. Hope to see you guys again. I was stunt. Energy were all drained by him already and yet he is telling me i still can stand more pressure. Rawrrrr.
I thought that over tooo, all until i saw the RJ question. Its damn demanding, have to write alot of things. And im like totally stuck. But when i remembered that he showed me what type of RJ our class produced and what type of RJ other class produced and he says that he wants a quality longggg RJ from us today. So i kept on writing and writing. And eventually, it became the longest RJ i have ever written so far. And i bet this will stay the record even in the later part of this year.

Tuesday, 21st July 2009
Module : Science
Topic : My parent and I (BIOLOGY)
Today's lesson is pretty fine. Get the gist of it and had quite some fun doing the powerpoint slides. Hahahahahhaa! Shouldnt elaborate cause i am too lazy to do so already. End offfff.

Tomorrow's ZOLENE birthday already ! Wooots !
Happy Birthday to her in advanceddddd x)

Ohman. Its a fcuking longgggggg post. Reminds me of my RJ for ystd :p HAHAHAHA!
- i wonder who will read everything -
Update again soonsxzxszxzsxzsxzxszxzxsz !
Don't pissed me off, i BITESXZSXZSXZSXZ XD HAHAHA.

Time's up. I've something to say still ..

2009-07-19T21:44:00.002+08:00

Went outt with JocieGf today (: Shopping spree part I !
First stop : Amk Hub
Second stop : Orchard
Last stop : Bugis
Saw quite a few familiar faces. And well, continue shopping.
Good day today! And we bought similar stuff, more to go (:

Wonder when are we celebrating zolene's birthday .. ..

Okay, shall stop here. Update soon :D

I'm stepping out of the dark side. Move on, michelle!

2009-07-18T11:42:00.003+08:00

Friday, 17th July 2009.
Cognitive and Problem Solving module.
Topic - Evaluate!
Relief facilitators - Andrea Chan.
People attended class - 15.
Relief facilitator, Andrea.C is NOT good at all.
Super demanding, and no sense of humor. Does not even follow with our class tempo.
Claims that she will extend the RJ submission timing till today 9pm.
But she didn't even set it at all, so now for those that haven't get their RJ done have to email to her. And hopefully she received it.
Lesson ended quite early. Stayed in school for awhile, and then headed to causeway point for movie.
Movie - Obsessed.
Timing - 5.35pm
With - JocieGf, Lesden, Malcolm and Roy.
Ratings - 3.5 out of 5

Bought tickets and walked arnd causeway point to slack.
After visiting minitoons, lesden and me went outt of the shop w/o Gf and malcolm noticing.
Hide and Seek (:
Roy came and had his lunch at Crystal Jade.
Then went for movieeeeee.
After movie, went to civic center for dinner.
Slack-ed around and all.
Gf went home, after that roy went off to drink.
Saw kengboon at the train station. Ha.
Chatted alot aft that, well, not supposed to mention it. (:
Supposed to meet up with Caifeng under my block. But in the end, didn't >.<

Sat, 18th July 2009.
Did my RJ.
Currently multitasking - Facebook. Twitter. Blogging. Msn. Sms. Listening to songs. Tv-ing.
Maybe heading outt to meet Ziwei later. Shall see my mood again.

And i'm able to go school on thursday already! Woots ~ That thing have been called off.
* Zolene birthday is coming up soon. Another celebration cominggggg. Gonna celebrate once with her together with Secondary school friends - Mingguan & co. And another time with poly friends - Lesden & co. And maybe more? Shall seeeee. HAHA.

* Thanks people for cheering me up when i'm down recently.
I'll be alrightt soon soon - Love you guys!

Waiting f that day to come, so i'll be down with my decision.
Considerations Criteria Consequences

2009-07-15T17:44:00.004+08:00

Although our love is over, it remains.
I hope a little piece of you is still .. reserved for me.
A moment with my music, sweet and slow.
There are no wishes like a former lover's
That from the dark, repentant night must shine.
And so though we have both moved on to others, my best regards is to you.

Today is the first day .. .. ..

There's still decision to be made. Im thinking thru it very very carefully.
I dontwant to be hurt anyone anymore, vice versa.
But perhaps, till then ..
- Feelings of yours have fade
- You are able to stand and move on w/o my presence
Perhaps perhaps perhaps ...
though its so much unwanted for that to happen, but im just afraid.

* Im still searching for the smile i lost ~

2009-07-14T22:07:00.002+08:00

Had been really moody these few days. Apologies people.
Have been in deep thoughts about something, a decision.
And now, things have aleady settled down, decision finalized.
But i am not myself anymore. I dont smile i dont joke i dont get crazy anymore.
All i did the whole day is to stone and stone and stone. Or perhaps, tearing silently.
I know i cant stay this way forever, i got to get over it. And smile like i always do.

- Is everything a mistake from the start ? -

* I will take this time to recover and as well think about IT ~
If you happen to see this, i would like to say.
I hope things will turned out smoothly for you in the future.
Look forward and forget those bad or maybe all memories that isn't worth.
Thankyou. And im sorry about everything.
All the best in everything everything. Take care lots.

I seriously regretted deleting all my text inbox.
Leaving me with no visible memories anymore.
I am still the same me having serious STM and hoping that i can have all the memories back is quite impossible, but i'm still trying. Because im not able to let go those memories, still.

I'm picking up the shattered pieces of myself, alone.
I'm trying to find the smile i used to have back, on my own.

Okay, everything is getting very emotional now.
I shall stop here before i drown myself with my own tears.
I will be back soon.

Will update more feelings soon.

2009-07-12T13:27:00.005+08:00

Its time for me to update already.
Far too many things had just happened and i am so not going to blog about every single thing.
Read up lesden's or jocie's blog for birthday celebrations detail (:
And and and, this is so not going to be a long post. HAHA.
and photos will be uploaded next timeeee.
Its LESDEN's brithday celebration yesterday !
Met up with malcolm jocie lesden and lesden's friend - paul , shuying , wanxin.
Had our dinner dine at some pub-like places at douby ghaut.
Had fun. Totally (:

Im totally lost, in the world of myself.
I hate making decisons. It is so hurting. Either to myself or the other party.
Saying words that i don't want to say. Thinking about things that i don't want to think about.
Is this just life? Or just myself.
Sorry to those people that i hurt. From the bottom of my heart, i really don't meant to hurt, seriously.
Hereby, i seriously apologise for everything.

Is a relationship about only two person or more ?
I sometimes dont understand why problems btwn two person have to be announced and widespread to others. Getting them to give advices? And letting spead nonsense around to others? I find very ridiculous, very.
Stop all these nonsense people.

And yesterday, the 11072009.
I deleted my text message inbox.
Every single message was deleted. Not even one saved.
I dont know why i did that but ya.
For people who know me well knows that its very unlikely i will delete every message.
Because it brings me back to different different memories at different point of time.
But now, its all gone. Including all those memories.

2009-06-25T19:40:00.003+08:00

Im not feeling very well right now.
So i shall make this a short post, if possible.

PIANG! -the meow-
MOUNTAIN boy and girls
Whatever & Asshole
All the above are all the fun times we had during e learning.

Urgh, i have no inspiration to blog now.
Update soon. Sorry people.

2009-06-24T17:27:00.002+08:00

We aren't moving anywhere further.

- i blogged -

2009-06-22T21:47:00.002+08:00

I removed the previous post that i've blogged about and replacing it with a new one.
I'm sorry if the previous post had caused people to felt uneasy and lost.
But well, its thoughts. Just thoughts.

Continue-ing ...
Asking what does a successful relationship is like?
Questioning how to maintain a relationship?
Thinking of what is the most important thing in a relationship?
Is being in a relationship concerns only the 2 party or isit the friends of theirs are also included?
Controlling too much? Having too much freedom?
Being in different world? Having different mindset?
When our love will die on us?
Is it true love or substituition?
Where's the sense of security?
What exactly is love?
How shall we feel to be in a relationship?

I let go of the past already. Have you?

I know you love me, and i love you too.
We talked about communicating well, did we?
We promised to be there for each other when we need each other, right?
We would stand by each other, wouldn't we?

Will we walk down the road together still?

I've think it through. Really really through.
Hear me out someday.

2009-06-16T19:44:00.002+08:00

After so long of not blogging, i'm finally here.
Haha, im now in school with lesden, zolene and malcolm at south food court.
Having our dinner together later (: Haaaa.
And we are now like doing our own things yea. Lesden & Zolene's concentrating on some korean thingy and the two of us are now listening to songs and looking at MVs. LOL.
Hmmmmmm, im too lazy to blog about the previous few days so ya.
Shall skipped it. Anyway, the last sunday was pretty good, i supposed (:
Ohwell, i promised to blog again soon.

2009-06-12T09:20:00.000+08:00

HappyBirthday
To :
Gavin
Jimmy
KengBoon

-blog soon- (:

2009-06-09T18:28:00.004+08:00

Firstly, before posting .. i would like to say I'M HAPPY TODAYSXZSZX (: !
( and it gonna be a long one - im gonna leave out some parts. )

Haha, today is really a busy day yeah. Early in the morning bout eight plus nine, met up with adrian'buddy ! headed to the whatever army/navy thingy at bukit merah i think? LOL. Anywayanyway, had a longggg jouney ~ &damn the weather ahhh, super duper hot in the early morning luhs. Finally we reached that place and gone through all the super mafan procedure and then went in to the building..

Budd went in for the interview and I sat outside and waited for him.From one person to many many person coming in, I didn’t noticed that the time had gone by so longgg already. Waited outside with no entertainment cause no digital devices is allowed :x But luckily, budd brought along his comic strips! Its damn nice ya, I read finished the whole book again and again (: And I totally lost track of time and didn’t know I actually spent twoo hours waiting all until budd came out. Hahahaha!After everything, went back to the interchange and took bus 851 back to angmokio.

Alighted somewhere near secondary school and walked to amkss. Met up with dx to collect her ‘O’ level certificate which is supposed to be collected like longgg longgg agooo! And yea, after that we took 74 to NgeeAnn poly and meet up with some BIGSHOT! LOLS.
Headed straight to convention centre and waited f that BigShot outside. But before he came out, there’s a lil argument between me and dx. It goes like this..
Dx saw a guy in white shirt and he looks like the BigShot, then she kept asking him to get out there and stop talking to his friends. But the person doesn’t seems to be moving. Then I found it very weird so I went closer to the door and take a look, but I don’t think that its him eh. Told dx that, but she says she CONFIRMED its me. And kept rushing me to call him out and exclaimed that he became fatter :x But which its like, I CONFIRMED its not him luhhhhh! After that I texted him and he said he justcame out onlyz. While texting, the guy in white went in to the convention centre and dx exclaimed! Asking him not to go insideeeee. I was like -.- !
After that when the BigShot- KAYZHENGJIE(he wanted his name BIGBIG) finally come out, he’s wearing black and not white and its not that guy that dx mistook. And yea, I won! Hahahaha. Luckily I still believe myself that I think he wont become like that plum luhhhh! Hahahahahaha!
Anyway, was laughing like dunno what and we bus-ed back to angmokio and headed to SumoHouse for lunch [: ! Catch-ed up while dining! And dx had to leave us and go somewhere yaaaa. So me and ZHENGJIE walked around angmokio central and angmokio hub and blahhhhh. Chatted quite a lot and yeah, home after that (: !

Asking me why am I so happy today?
· I met up with Adrian’Buddy TODAY !
· I met up with CAINKAYZHENGJIE TODAY !
· SA International PBL event TOMORROW !
· E35E class chalet TOMORROW !
· Meeting up with AhBeng LATER !
· Having lovely friends to chat and text NOW !

To: Zhengjie.
I didn’t know you got read my blog one duh! So now, satisfied with the font of your name with my fav colour? HAHAHAHAHA! Anyway, happy reading! Remember what you should do during your holidays ahhhhh. Got heart jiu must … er hummmm ! HAHAHAHA.

! Its very nice meeting up with close friends that i don't head out with often. Those past times we spent together last time were all brought back. Fun times. Awkward times. Were all so memorable. I'll never forget all these memories, never! Like how buddy remind me bout our primary school times, all those bickerings, teasings, fighting and all were all so memorable and funny. HAHA. And CKZJ, the handphone strap brought back memories tooo. Well, nice time i had today.

** If you have to walk 100 steps, you’ll only need to walk one step. Because the rest of the 99 steps I’ll walk for you. ** - Isn’t this sweet? Thanks F.

Sweettalks? Maybe it wouldn’t bribe me. But I definitely love those heart sayings, true ones (: I’ll remember every lil things you guys have said as long I believe it comes from your heart. LOVED!

2009-06-03T16:15:00.004+08:00

I deleted the previous post and now here's a more detailed and updated one.

1st of June 2009.

i met up with zolene and daniel at tampiness mrt station.

walked around tampiness 1 and then they decided to head to bugis to do shopping.

listed all of our shopping list and getting so excited to get them because we haven't been out shopping for a super long time alreadyz.

Went to bugis street and all, saw my dear classmate, nadya at there working.
Daniel bought a eat stud and i bought accessories.

Continue-d walking at the second level and something bad happened alreadyz.

Some unknown fat ass was walking behind me, suddenly super squeezy and then i feel something really wrong.

So stopped by at the corner in front and get zolene to call my phone cause i suspect it gone already. Then yes, in the end, its gone together with my wallet somemore.

So fucking irritated, went down trying to search for the person, well, we wasted too much time so didnt manage to catch up with the person.

LOTS OF SMALL SMALL DETAILS INSIDE! -ask me for more details-

Marathon lorhsxz, daniel and zolene. you know what i'm saying about yeahs.

After that decided to go police station to make a report.

That day is my super unlucky canszx, even the police officer was super xialan.

Shall not further elaborate here :x

Anywayz, daniel brought me and zolene to douby ghaut for dinner.

ICE CREAM ICE CREAM ICE CREAM.

Ice-cream make me a lil bit more happy, i think (:

After that, we went the nearby places for photos!

Photographer Model :D Actually wanted to wait for all photos to be uploaded before i blogg. But seems that the photos need alot of time to be uploaded so i shall just post firstz !

Was pretty upset that my phone and wallet's lost, i called up some numbers that i can remember and think of at that moment using zolene's phone and whine.

So, sorry to those that i've disturbed :

And here, at the ending of my post i would like to thanks a few person.

Zolene!

Thanks for running around like mad with me.
And paying the taxi fares heading back from police station first.
Accompanying me the whole day.
Also those lame jokes with daniel that cheer me up alot alot.
And lending me your phone to text!
AND AND AND ALOT MORE!
THANKS SISTER! <3>

Daniel!

Thanks for running around bugis street.
Thanks for paying the taxi fares heading to police station first.
Accompanying me the whole day.
And also all the directing and modelling.
ALOT ALOT MORE TOOOO!
Thanks Daniel! Much much appreciated! Will repay you guys back soonsz okays! Out soonsxzzzzzz! <3!

Hermann!

Thanks for listening to me down there crying for help for things i have lost.
Thanks yeaps! I know im abit desperate for phone and help at that time, so i kept complaining. Haaaaa! Meetup soonxz <3!

Weicheow!

Sorry to alarm you bout my lost phone and all ya.
Thanks for still replying me message even when your prepaid is going low.
And also comforting me after everything.
Thanks cap, seriously! <3!

Daxin!

Thanks for comforting me and trying to lending me a helping hand ya.
Thankyou! Much appreciated! <3!

Kengboon!

Thanks for listening to me whining though you didnt say much ._.
And also telling me that i shouldnt cry over spilled milk and blahh.
Thanks though. Im sorry if i disturbed you that day when i think you are outside ya. I thought about it already, so yeah. Thankyou luh! <3!

ALL OTHER IMPORTANT FRIENDS!

Thanks people for concerning and ensuring on what i should do after this incident.
And lending me a helping hand when i need them.
And getting even more anxious than me when all this happened.
Main thing is i love you guys okays!

After all this, i realised that like who really cares and who don't. This is the time where i differentiate friends. Friends of years or i thought that im very close with might be those that doesn't really care and some others really shocked me with their actions. Anyway anyway anyway, i still love you guys (including my dear classmates) okaysxz?! ((:

* In the past, you would have been more caring. Where's the old you where i know?

2009-05-31T11:00:00.002+08:00

Holidays are supposed to be filled with fun and laughter, isnt't it?
Its the second day of holiday and im not feeling very happy, why?
My brother went for chalet alreadyz, leaving me noone to challenge the game with.
Friends get me to go out with them, but i don't really feel like stepping out of house.
Well, practically bored every moment.
Is holiday really a good thing, to me?

I don't understand why things can changed so fast, including people.
Few days ago we could be happily chatting away, but a few days later not much contact.
What's happening? I really have no idea.
Is it you the one who changed? Or is it me?

I want nothing for now.
Maybe only hoping that people around me could be as happy as possible.

Oh, im getting abit more emotional here.
Have got to go out soonz and have fun during the holidays before i started thinking about all the unhappy things and started crying.

2009-05-31T00:18:00.002+08:00

Alrights, just done changing my blogskinsxzxz.

Can't find really nice ones even after looking through for a longgg timesxzxzxz.

Lazy to find already so shall settle with this one firstsxzxzx.

Holiday is here alreadysxzxzxz. Can finally relaxsxzxzx.

Hmmmmmm, nothing much happen today -practically im just too lazy to updatesxzsxz-

So ya, all the twit language today was totally random and to caifeng - irritating. LOLS!

Anyway, hope tomorrow is a better dayszxzxzsx.

Goodnight everybodysxzxzx!
Will blog soonszxxzxz.

P/S: I miss you.

2009-05-27T14:51:00.028+08:00

Im now having Communication Practise module right nowszxz.
Today's problem is fun, creating and improving the advertisement.
Later have got to attend JIVE Welcome Tea then after that have to go TTSH to visit KW.
And Maths module & Communication Practise UT tomorrowz, hope it's alrightsxzxz.
Hmmmmm! I've got alot of photos to upload :D Mass webcam session & more coming on!
Featuring: Lesden. Jocie. Zolene. Nadya.

2009-05-25T15:09:00.002+08:00

Im having Enterprise Module now. And Enterprise UT later on.

Everything is like so rushed, and i havent studied enough yet.

Today's Enterprise lesson is so difficult, all the theories theories theories. I so dontlike all those theories laaaaa! Anyway, im blogging now while im listening to the 6th P. LOL!

Tomorrow gonna be a dreadful day, totally.

Because we're having Science module and Maths UT. A super bad day tomorrowz. -DIES-

I wonder when's the Science UT going to take place, hope its on the wednesday! So that i can have my friday off :D

Tomorrow's the 26th May. It used to be a joyful day. And i hope its still too.

Anyway, HappyBirthday in advanced!

2009-05-24T18:34:00.002+08:00

Im feeling so unwell right nowszxz!

Enterprise lesson & UT tomorrow. So dead.

2009-05-23T11:52:00.017+08:00

SCIENCE LESSONS!

- Aizat Teresa and Me were playing with these Atoms Molecules!

Aizat with his atoms doggie paying attention to 6th P!

Random pic! Same type of pen and pencil and happen that we're in the same group!

Maths lesson :D! - Lesden Ida Crystal Divya

Photo taken when all of us were having 5mins break before the next presentation.

Came back from washroom & get divya to take this pic! RANDOM! - Crystal Alexis Ida Lesden

Fruity Chocolate from JunHao. Brought to school and share with classmates (:

BELTATED PHOTOS! - 1ST MONTH ANNIVERSARY!

Science UT postponed. Cognitive & Problem Solving - The Argument Clinic is fun.

New group members and 'm loving them - Jodieee. Erdieee. Peishan. Iqbal.
After school. SA Welfare Day! - Totally Great! Game Masterz Rocks My Socks!

Event ended quite late, after met up with Alex & co. Fun people. Fun times!

Went to meet up with KellyLuv after so long of not seeing her.

Chatted alot alot alot alot. Good day i had todayszxz!

Heading over to Raffles Place later.
Heading out to bugis with Daniel and Zolene tomorrow?

Life's unpredictable. You never know what's gonna happen the next moment.

So people, why waste time being angry with each other when peace could be made if you make one step back? Why get bothered about things that you cant do anything with it? Why keep getting upset over things that is already the fact? Why bother backstabbing others when in the end the one getting hurt will most probably be yourself? Why bother quarreling with each other when actually happy times could be shared together?

Life's short, really short.

Choose to Love than to Hate. Isnt it happier to live happily?

Say sorry to those you've been mean to.

Say imissyou to those you really treasures.

Say iloveyou to those you really want to love.

Dont regret only after everything's gone. Once gone, they never come back anymore and this is life.

But can i be as happy as what i hoped it would be? Happy moments are awaiting for me, are they?

Im losing the sight of you, where have you gone to?

I miss you so much.

2009-05-20T17:01:00.001+08:00

Hmmmm. Today's Communication Practice againz (:

Steamy red nails and class theme : Black todayz :D !

We taken classphotos tooooo !

HAPPY FIRSTZ MONTH TO E35E ~ LOVESSSS DEEEEP DEEPPPP !

Msn disturbing againsxz ! And my msn also kena ~ Had pretty much fun.

Esp the convo of them with zolz and the webcamming session with zolz and my whole class.

HAHA. i think zolz know what im talking about :D HAHA!

They talked to people that i dontwant to talk to in my msn contacts also. Sending the good luck message to her. Super dislike it lorhsxz. But anyway, who gives a damn. We're plain having fun and thats all.

Suppose to take photo with Lesden again todaysxz. But .. after UT my mood not that good, i think my classmatess and daniel know whyyy ): So ya, sorry people if im emo just now and even few dayz before.

I'LL BE ALRIGHTSXZ YEAHHHH !

Lesden Lesden, pictures soonz yeap (: !

2009-05-18T23:32:00.002+08:00

went for SA game masterz meeting at library today.

we did alot more discussions and finally get to meet the rest of the two teammates :D

well, though only 6/10 attended the meeting, everything's still doing fine.

finalize on the plans and sorts and we're having a dry run for our game tomorrow.

so it would be like meeting them at the same place on the same time.

hope tomorrow(after school) is a better day.

cause i know science for me will never be fun..

WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME ?

It havent been me these few days. Felt super moody and no energy or motivation to do anything nowadays. Well, certainly NOT because of PMS if you guys are thinking of it.

I have no mood to crack jokes, join in the fun, get high, pay attention to lesson, and even doing my RJ! Like today's RJ question, which used to be the type of question where i can write lots and lots of meaningful things. But now, i wrote my RJ for like less than 150 words. I felt so so so pathetic right nowz!

WHY HAVE I CHANGED ? i hope its only a temporaily change .

Cause i seriously dont like the me now, there's just something OR could be everything that is wrong? uh :x i seriously dont get in laaaaa ~

People, get the old me back please. I dontwant to be so emotional or neither look so emo anywhere cause i will join back my class soonz! I hoped i can make it, as well as the class accepts it. Ohman, its getting emo alreadyz :x

MOOD PLEASE COME BACK !

2009-05-17T14:04:00.012+08:00

SOME PICTURES THAT I FORGOTTEN TO UPLOAD :P
LESDEN DREW THIS WHEN IM FEELING MOODY ! thanks though.

DANIEL !

Went for the Student Ambassador First Formal Meeting already.

Lame ice breaking game then proceed to lecture room.

We are intro-ed to what SA is all about and ya. Then we are seperated into six groups and ya. Im in the same group as MARION, good thing :D

Needa assign roles and all. And im the overall in charge :D Marion as the game incharge (:

And we are the GAME MASTERS!

Gotta meet up with the team for more planning and modification of the game that we have to come up with. And we have got the SA welfare thingy on the 22nd of may!

Hohoho, hope its a fun day :D

After that stayed behind to acc marion to wait for alex & friends.

Went to TRCC and blahblahblahblahblah. Waited till like 8 or so like that? Its so freezing cold inside :x ZZZ!

UT is coming up real real soon ~ DIE !

And my bloody MSN account cannot logg in! Same problem as daryl's one. Irritating laaa! Have to create new one. Grrrrr!

So people, eternity-perfection@live.com.sg is NOT in use alreadyz.
Changed to, something similiar but yet different! Ask me, if i didnt add you!

Finally posted.

2009-05-15T11:41:00.012+08:00

Yeah, after so long of not blogging. I'm now back. Currently didnt have any mood to blog either so shall just do it randomly. I've my very first class photo alreadyz, and shall upload it later.
But wenting's not inside :x School's still the same. Presentations Presentations and Presentations. Some good news, i passed the Student Ambassadors Interview.
And today im going for the very first Student Ambassadors Meeting Probation Trail with Marion. Hope its interesting ya.
Since yesterday, im not feeling right alreadyz. Felt so bothered and all, no mood at all. I have been super quiet in class yesterday and today.
And i cant even multi task now, is just like the computer is lagging.
Hope i will be alright on monday. And now, im here typing my blog entry during break and emo-ing? Oh, i dontknow. Moodless uh. Sian like dontknow what. Lucky today's frday. Have gotta seriously relax after school today.
Maybe to somewhere more relaxing, alone or ? i dontknow.
Actually wanted to blog everyday, but seems like i donthave the time to do so. Life's so busy. RJ RJ RJ, or perhaps im just plain lazy luh. HAH.
Well, let me talk about yesterday.
Hmmmmm, lesson's fine.
Stayed behind to do study and went revising for UT test after that. Zolz went for the social dance thing, then me daniel and lesden studied in class till the security comes then we went to the library to continue.
Well, practically we studied only science cause its like one of my lousiest subject. Anyway, had pretty much fun in the library playing with msn and ya. Lols! Shhhhhh, the monkey next door is playing with my msn :D
HAHAHA! - DONT TRY TO BOTHER ME IF I AM BUSYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY -
Okay, new day start today. Cognitive & Problem Solving now!
Today no presentation, only essay writing and ya, discussions.
Everything went quite well yeap. Today supposingly, we should change our groupings but we request for one last time to be in the same team this week.
Anyway, we already gotten a preview on our new team. And i dont like it at all. NO!
Was pretty upset about changing teams for this lesson, dontknow why. At first at first, i have totally no mood today, totally lost and whatever, dont even feel like talking or speaking to anyone. However things went better when we're having the second break (:
Alex and co came to E3 level 5 for lunch. They brought along their lunchpack and blahblah. Acc them till they finished and ya. They are fun peoplesss. Lols!
Came into E35E and said hi to my classmates and blahhhhh !
GREAT :D lol.
My day was made happier by them. A
nd my hair was like totally messed up. THANKS TO AMIN DARYL ERDIE for their creation luh! LOL.

* HOHOHO *

* CHEESE *

THE CREATION OF DARYL AND ERDIEEEEEE [:

LESDENNNNN !

ME AND LESDEN (:

MAIN POINT'S NOT ME, IS CX :D

DARYL'S MUSCLE ._. WITH MY FACE BLOCKED :D

* CLASS PHOTO SNAP SHOT 1 *

* CLASS PHOTO SNAPSHOT 2 *
ACTUALLY THERE'S MORE. BUT TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD EVERYTHING :x

AND I THANKS THOSE THAT TRIED TO CHEER ME UP WHEN IM FEELING LOW! NOT FORGETTING THOSE THAT CARE TOOOO :D LOVE YOU GUYS !

2009-05-10T21:09:00.003+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.

A random day today.

Helped Kokwei with his blogged and everything.

Done lots of quizes on facebook with Dibao.

Chatted on msn with alot of people.

Played restaurant city pet society mafia wars and guitar geek on facebook.

Dinner out at town with family.

My day ended.

- i tried to make myself happy a little by not thinking too much -

2009-05-09T23:38:00.005+08:00

*edited*

Friday's school was MARVELLOUS :D !
Team members went super high and SOMETHING funny happened.
HIGH HIGH HIGH :D
-lazy to elaborate- YOU KNOW I KNOW !
School ended. Stayed in class and did the evaluation and quiz while waiting.

-GREAT TIME-

Hanping came to school and fetch me then we both headed back to amgmokio together to meet his friends.

Dinner - Kpool - Home - MSN - Last Minute RJ - Stayed up late

I kept asking myself ..

CAN FADED FEELINGS BE RETRIEVED ?

I dontwant to have FEMALE friends that smokes.

Even i have, they're obviously JUST a NORMAL friend.

2009-05-07T11:47:00.004+08:00

Im currently in school having my break and will be working for my presentation slides after i finished blogging.
Today we had our mathematics module, its still as confusing.
I hate it when i got stuck on one question and seeing every others moving forward.
Arghhhhh.. Off to do work on presentation alreadyz :x

Can Faded Feelings Be Retrived ? Teach Me How.

2009-05-06T20:56:00.003+08:00

School's fine today :D Had Communication Practice today.
Met daxin ziwei and his friend, khairul(i think) at the train station.
BlahBlahBlah, school's alright and whatever ..
I've been random in school today :D I just click on anyone on ziwei's msn and started saying hello! So those victims, sorry ah! Lols, all because of random-ness :D !
As usual, i stayed in school till round seven like that then go off.
But today daxin and hermann came to my class (: Lesden & Arlene were in class too ! -FUN-
Well, everything's pretty good except that my blog entry today is super duper boring. I donteven know what im like talking about here laaa.
Shall stop blogging alreadyz, see you guys soon :x

* Thanks WeiCheow for giving me that morning call (:

2009-05-05T18:12:00.004+08:00

went to crystal's blog. was too bored so tried out this facebook quiz (:

well, it's me. haha!

尽管生活是有崎区挫折, 但你总有办法克服, 顺利渡过! 你遭遇过的措折比一般人多. 你曾经接触过一些难相处的人, 没道理的规定和不和谐的人际关系. 你对爱情的态度就像太阳表面一般热情高温. 当你被很多烦人的事困扰的时候, 你要不就是非常镇定的静观其变, 要不就是以领导者的姿态出现叫大家都闭嘴! 你觉得一个人去看电影没什么大不了. 反而想不通为什么有些人非要有人陪才肯去看电影. 你感到自在, 不论是一个人独处或处在人群当中. 你对你的父母不很满意但又无法改变他们. 你会是个很好的情人. 如果你能在万人之中找到和你极为相配的人. 不然的话, 你和恋人的关系总是不能持久或痛苦结束. 你可能已经和一个你并不爱的人在一起太久了. 生活就像在坐云霄飞车一样, 你总是想尽办法让生活过得更加如你所愿. 你要不就是个运动迷, 要不你就曾经嚐试过禁药.

well, i decided to move on alreadyz.

had a long talked with kengboon yesterday night after so long of not contacting and realised many things had changed. almost everything's different already.

i wished time could be like before again, seriously. i'll definately missed this friend of mine.

last of all, wished him all the best in finding another part (: ! thanks for his wishes and talk too !

hoho, this's taken yesterday! (:

ME + LESDEN = AWESOME ! (quoted from lesden)

* long RJ doesnt mean good RJ *

2009-05-04T21:06:00.003+08:00

Today's a tiring day. I spent the whole day in school practically doing nothing.
Everything except lesson today was dreadful. First time i ever said that lesson could actually be some sort of fun somehow :x
Everything including msn conversations is wrong. I seriously dont like today, seriously. Shocked after shocked. Disappointment after disappointment. Sadness after sadness. Nothing could be ever more wrong then today. Everything's bad.
I'd talk on student ambassadors IG again tmrw ._.

2009-05-04T07:55:00.005+08:00

What's gonna happen next ?
So many things i wanted to do. So many i wanted to say .
But time and courage doesnt allow me to .
Im all right since school started but whats now ? Things are going haywire and nothing seems right ? I dread this type of thing , seriously .
I think i need support , more .
Hmmmmmmmmmm , came to school today with WeiCheow . Thanks him for meeting me up (: Hope he could recover soon :D !
What's gonna happen after school today ? I wonder .

2009-05-03T20:09:00.003+08:00

I'M NOT AHLIAN LAAAAAAAAAA ._.

i dontlike it when people mistook me as ahlian. esp: after reading my post!

IMissYouNow.

Mixed Feelings

2009-05-02T12:14:00.006+08:00

1st may - labour day !
i went out with three of my dearest classmates ; crystal lesden daryl
we went to town , caught a movie called sell out , okay , shouldnt elaborate on that movie cause we went . . . . after watching that movie . haha !
DONT BUT ME , I DONT LIKE PEOPLE TO BUT ME . -LOL-
before the movie we went to arcade and blahblahblah , saw kengboon and his friendsss outside the arcade :x tried to say hi but . . . nevermind . -idontlikeyourwayofreacting-
after the movie we just slack around town areas and we crapped all the way .
well , its was pretty fun yesterday though we were quite lost ya , lol .
hmmmmmm , crystal left us when we were at burger king .
and ya , lesden got tricked bout the bangle thing ! lolololol ~
after that lesden and i acc daryl to the bus stop and wait for his bus ~
then we walked all the way back to the train station and train-ed back to amk to meet dx .
let's end the outing with a group photo :D !

* thanks lesden for taking the train back with me ! goodluck all the way :D haha !

okay , suppose to meet daxin right after i reached amk .
but she's didnt know i reached already so i waited for her at hub alighting point for quite awhile .
after meeting her , many many things happened .
i saw so so so many familiar faces and ya , mr chow too .
okay after all these happy things , the shitty part comes alreadyz .

some fcuking person came t look for problem and act like as if he's some big gangster thing .
fcuking hell , he calls his friend whom is at kpool down to see show cause we were not scared of him when he shows attitude , damnnnn i seriously hate it when he kept going .. limbei limbe$i limbei ! i was so pissed off with him laaa , act one big gangster when he's like cant even compared to a shrimp . Z ! we are not allowed to go home thn im thinking of calling someone down t acc me peii daxin home first then i head home to be safe . i didnt know who to mafan at that time and i was messaging adrian at that time , so i called him to come over since he's in amk area .
- more story behind -

and it totally freaked me out but i did realised that buddy is not there only for good names . he's willing to help me out when i gotten involve in some shitty matters without claiming any compliments nor complaining about it . i really really thanks him and his friendsss yesterday night . they went to the extent that they acc me sent dx home and walked back home with me (: ! much much appreciated and his words touched me lots . though i knew him for very long alreadyz and we're on sucha good terms but i never thought that he would be the one that could actually come to 'rescue' when this type of things happened . im really glad that i know this buddy of mine - adrian (: ! and his friends :D

anyone , just asked me for more info if you wanted to know what type of shitty matters i gotten involved in yesterday night , labour day night . i wont mind sharing , i really dont [:

and dx , if ever you wanted to like let me , buddy and friends down , i dontthink its worth helping you anymore . we helped you yesterday because as a friend i dontwant anything bad to happen to you but if you want to continue and more shitty things come up , im afraid we wont want to care anymore . you , go think about it yourself , see whether its worth it making all these trouble or not . we wouldnt blame you for yesterday's thing but please make your stand clearly , if ever you want to side him in the end , then you know you should just forget it and dont bother to ask me for help in the first place . this short post for you is not has no offence , just wanna let you know how we actually feel here .

well , after this matter , i seriously went into thinking . who will really 'come to rescue' when this time of things happen ever again .

where are you when i need you ?

I can cry so hard listening to 下雨天

2009-05-01T00:12:00.002+08:00

School's funn but i dont like my grades. All B's and C's and im tired of it :x Pretty much discouraging uhs .
I met up with KellyLuv recently and i've a great talk with her , im happy !
Im one step closer with my buddy and his friends(adrian, wei cheow, dibao) , i 've fun chatting with them , im happy !
I met new friends(alex's classmates) , well i want get to know them more , interesting , im happy !
I went out with kokwei , had a super great time with him , im happy !
I joined JIVE , cool IG , im happy !
Im heading out with some of the E35E loved ones(Lesden, Daryl, Crystal) tmrw , looking forward , im happy !
I've been webcamming with many people , many many , im happy !
I met up with ZolzSis recently , im happy !
Im staying back in school with friends(bh and dx and and and) , im happy !
I love E35E , it's so united , im happy !

He's behaving weirdly recently. Why have we stopped contacting each other?
I dontknow laaa, i hoped everything could be like before.
When he'll text me everyday and all. I dontwant to lose a goodfriend like that.

2009-04-26T14:51:00.002+08:00

Teen Love Test
Full-Fledged Lover
You're qualified to be a Full-Fledged Lover! You have showed wisdom and understanding of love and therefore is old enough mentally and emotionally to experience the magic of love. Although handling of relationships is not easy, you're well equipped to handle it. However, do be careful whom you give your heart with as it might end in tears if you're not careful

2009-04-25T12:24:00.003+08:00

To Alex :
Im not an expert in bagg laaa ! (bagg zipping) LOLOLOL !
I think only you knows what i am talking about mansxz (:
Shhhhhh , we both have a secret !
Exposed = Death ! HAHA :D
Hmmmmm , when want head to sengkang again ? Opps !
Stayyy backkk in school againszxz together soonnn (:
Haha, alrightszxz ! See you on monday morning ! 6 am right ? HAHAHA !

To B and D :
Please ahh , if you guys ever want us to tagg along with you then dont ever like ask us to go home first when we make the effort to went all the way there with you guys laaa .
Its really pissing canszxz .
We are not like your dogs or whatever canszxz , you ask us to come and go as you like .
We dont like it canszxz .
If ever you two think that you're not wrong , then forget it laaa .
But whatever it is , reflect on yourself laaa ! ZZZ @.@

To PW :
Oh manszxz . Yesterday's webcamm sessions were good rightszxz ? Lols !
School's funn with webcammm yeps :D
Moreeeeeeeee okayszxz . See you soon (:

** More ..

2009-04-24T22:54:00.001+08:00

School have been fine, but not really fine.
Many things outside school happened, nothing's good.
Other's dont understand. Im going mad. Dying..

2009-04-22T08:10:00.003+08:00

The school make it a point that we should write our RJ every school day. Then i think i should make it a point to write my BJ every school day so that my blog wont rot so easily. HA-HA!

Lesson learnt for the first day of school :
► New environment is good but sometimes boring.

Day one out of school :
► Its good to have someone that is close to you in the same poly.

Lesson learnt for the second day of school :
► Being hyper in class is not anything wrong.
► Some friends are only there to pisss you off.
► Not everyone is worth helping, even friends.
► Some people are born to be a liar, basically, friends lied at each other too.
► Not all white lies are good.

Lesson learnt for the third day of school :
► Be confident of yourself. Do not have to care what others think about you. (not overconfident)
► I've got a good entertainer in class, daryl chow d.r

Lesson learnt for the third day out of school :
► Friends that's 重色轻友 isnt worth hanging out together.
► Blame noone for being a friend that concern about others.
► Staying late in class really clears my mind.
► The journey is super long from rp to home, alone.
► When one say he likes/loves you, he can dont meant anything.
► Now i realised, actions really do speaks louder than words.

♠ i simply just dont understand why is there people that wants to create chaos between one another. is not saying lies that difficult? i dont like it when people lied to me, even though its a white one, cause in the end, it will still hurts, or maybe double. i dislike the feeling of being cheated, never.

♠ i couldnt understand why there such evil people around, when he/she needs you then he/she will come looking for you, but when he/she dont need you, he/she will just forget totally about you. i seriously dislike this type of person, and why on earth these people have to surround me.

♠ well, today. maybe's a bad day for me. in the early morning, i already got so pissed off and the rest of the day isnt anything better. today, i too realised alot alot of things that i dont wish to face in the past, or maybe, i neglected the problem.
after sitting in E35E alone since 330 to now, i thought through alot alot of things. im upset and angry with myself, i didnt know that i was such a fool that goes helping other and getting bad treatment form them when they no longer need me. asking myself, why did i ever want to care about them, so what they're friends, they dont even bother about how i feel, all they know is them to stay best and their ~~boyfriends~~/girlfriends.
i should have just save my time doing my own things and not poking a nose in their business even when they asked me for help. and till today, i realised that actually at times its wrong lending others a helping hand. i never regretted having such friends before no matter how others talked bad about them, but at this moment, i regretted. should this friendship stil continue? i really wonder...

♠ i dontlike friends that is 重色轻友
♠ but i also dont like him treating his friend/ex/whatever more than everything, even me.

2009-04-21T21:39:00.003+08:00

When i need help, who will be the one that will be there for me, without complains?
When i need someone to talk to, who will be the one that i look up for even in midnight?
When i need someone to complain to, who will be the one that i call up and whine to?
When i need someone's shoulder, who will be the one that's willing to lend me even i wet them?
When i need someone to encourage me, who will be the one that's gives a pat on my shoulder and say work harder?
...
...
...

2009-04-21T21:02:00.002+08:00

School was fine (:

I dontwant to be together with someone that have another person in the heart.

This is definately not jealousy, but just so not right.

The one you actually love is not me, but another.

I never wanted to be the spare tyres or the shadow of that person.

One day you're never able to forget her, one day we'll stay like this.

Not any step closer, never.

I dontknow if you ever see this post, or perhaps it just me complaining about everything alone here. I dontknow, and i dont care now. If i dont typed this out, im so gonna feel so terrible inside. Anyway, pardon me for saying anything wrong.

2009-04-19T12:27:00.003+08:00

okay, i promise to blog before my school starts tomorrow.
tomorrow is the start of school already, and im now sick ): -terrible-
everything's not going well now.
First, he lied. (H)
Second, im sick.
Third, tmrw schl's going to start.
Fourth, he thinks im crazy. (K)
Fifth, im from the east.
Sixth, i dontknow what to wear tmrw.
Seventh, i hate her attitude. -weirdo- (D)
Eighth, time is running out.
Nineth, i want to meet KellLuv for long chit chat sessions ):

Okay, all these is making me crazyyyyyy ):
im not feeling well, think i will blogged another day ):

2009-04-10T12:47:00.001+08:00

more days ..

2009-04-08T16:04:00.002+08:00

2009-04-08T00:15:00.003+08:00

是时候该结束了.

2009-04-07T20:57:00.003+08:00

Alright, i think its time for me to update already. But i dontthink i want to blog about what had happened over these few days ya.
Yesterday night, went to meet kelly for some chit chat sessions and i learnt alot alot. She shared alot of things with me which made me realised how important it is to treasure life. I really got to thanks for that mansxz (:
And today, i came online and im getting excited over somethings yeaps.
* hoho, kell! i blogged liaooooosxz. excited excited @.@!

2009-04-07T18:06:00.001+08:00

im too lazy to update ._.

maybe later? lol.

2009-03-28T17:40:00.002+08:00

27th march
met up with ling in the morning and headed to jurong east to collect some stuffs.
and we did some shopping tgt as well down at IMM.
spent alot on shopping & im quite broke now =\
suppose t meet right aftr my shopping sessions at jurong east for more shopping sessions at city hall. but texted B in the mid of shopping and knw that he's sick ):
so decided t go over t his house and visit him first [:
bought herbal tea and jelly for him and stayed w him till 6pm when dx-bh called.
then i headed over t find her at amk mrt station & we train-ed over to city hall.
go right to the arcade at marina sq and try to catch some toys :P
with luck, i manage to get one for dx and one for myself -ME TO YOU BEARS-
hoho, we decided to give it to our boyfriends instead :D
-continue shopping-
met up with B and bh at amk.
schedule :
28th march
have got somethings to do at home ._.
29th march
family day ._.
30th march
* planning to meet up w KellyLuv
* B's off day, got to meet him at night.
31st march
* arcade sessions w dx
* shopping sessions w dx
* dining sessions w zolz
1st april
* april fool
* not scheduled
2nd april
* 5th month anniversary <3
3rd april
* CSCC

update soon ><

2009-03-26T21:37:00.002+08:00

oh, i wanted to blog but i always forgot to ><
and now i remembered but i forgot what did i do the past few days :x
ookkaayy, let me recall ..
24th march, tuesday
i met up with zolene for shopping. it've been a very long time since i went out with her alone. we went to expo robinson sale, shopped arnd for kw's birthday present and blahblah. thn we went t bugis to shop (: both of us bought something back! haha. we're both tired alr, so we decided to stop at mac for a rest and ate mc flurry. &we chatted alot, really. and of course, i learned something from the things we talked about.
- even you be kind to others, others will also repay you with all the bad doings -
well, this actually bothers me quite alot. cause i just cldnt understand why everyone cannot be everyone's friend? zz! not to think bout it anymore alr ._.
25th march, wednesday
hoho! today went to celebrate kokwei's birthday in advanced tgt with zolene, hanping, daxin, binghao, kennethlim and of course kokwei.
and yeahs. met up with zolene, hanping, kokwei and kennethlim first met up in schl to collect our 'o' level certificates. daxin supposed to meet us by then, but think she wants t stay by with binghao instead.
headed to amk hub and the guys have their lunch [: saw daxin and binghao aftr they finished their meal. thn kokwei and kennethlim decided to go disiao them ><>
actually wantd to catch the movie 'confession of shopaholic' but they so engaged with pool games and we missed the movie time x.x
headed to eat dou huay that kenneth wanted to eat so much :p
thn we went off seperately (:
26th march, thurday
came back from B's house this aftrnoon and get busy with my stuffs again.

2009-03-23T12:42:00.002+08:00

ilovehim ^^
..
was talking to weicheow just now.
he taught me alot of things, and i enjoyed talking to him.
we known each other for days and we talk like as if we known for ages.
he told me his reason for motivating himself & i bet he's sucha good boyfriend (:
he's sensible enough to think for his future, realistic ones.
though he's in ITE now, but he took up lessons for private diploma, cause he know that he have got to work hard so that he could provide good life for his girlfriend and his family.
he doesnt want his girl to suffer with him in the future and so he worked so hard right now.
how sensible he is, motivating himself and work towards his goals.
and thanks to him, i realised many things(:
* i do hope my boy doesnt expect me to do very well for my studies cause im really not good at it even though i tried very hard.

2009-03-23T12:35:00.002+08:00

(:
If you never do it, dont be afraid facing it.
You know who you are.
Im waiting f your respond.
I just wanna a peace talk w you t clear things up.

2009-03-21T15:43:00.002+08:00

I shall make this a simple post (:
% accompany B to polytechnic for his eye's problem.
% the doctor gave him 3days of MC, he wasnt able to go work today ><
% strolled arnd amk area.
% B decided to cook dinner himself.
% so headed to NTUC Fairprice to get ingredients (:
% Alvin called aftr we're done, and asked to join him for BBQ under his block.
% so we headed back to B's house.
% on the way back, saw B's friend -didnt know whats his name, cause B himself cannot rmb-
% slacked awhile at his house and he started preparing dinner while i uses the comp :p
% went down to Alvin's BBQ after our dinner :D
% chitchatted w them :)
% home sweet home
yesterday was a great day, every lil details that was not mention really made my day :)
&im meeting B later to settle the itouch thingy >< i was occupied by it for the whole day already uh, its his turn fix all the problems :x cause i surrender already =\
hmms, time to get prepare and head over to his house to meet him already (:
blog soon ;D

2009-03-20T20:31:00.002+08:00

Everything is back to normal once again.
Thanks to HER/THEM, we know how important trust is btwn friends and lovers (:
This thing ended so quickly its all thanks to KB :D
And obviously not forgetting people like;
* Justin * Adrian * Adrian's friends * Dibao & a few more thats willing to help :)
Also not forgetting those that cheers me up and encourage me when im down;
* Zolene * Zhengjie * Lionel * Dyon * Ann * Derrick & alot more.
Add-ons.
And also thanks to the two girls, Venice & Channice.
Esp; Venice. Thanks for the wishes though (:
Last but not least, a big thanks to kelly for being out there with me when im super bothered by the problem at first. Luv!
AndAndAnd, thanks B for trying to convince me that he didnt done anything wrong and cheering me up using funny ways (: iloveyou <3
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To the person that does all this crappy childish thing;
Listen up, dontever think you will be able to stay annoynomous forever.
Go do a research before playing sucha trick on others lah, your IQ isnt that powerful yet.
Gotten exposed when you havent got the fun? Oh, sad for you. ZZ!
Tell you, playing with the cops might be more fun, you wanna try? -smiles-
Overall, i just got to tell you. YOU'RE SUCHA SICKO~

2009-03-19T13:28:00.002+08:00

wtf is going on mansxz.

2009-03-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

i sat in front of the computer the whole day already, not moving much.
i'm just so stuck here.
except for the phone calls from kelly, kokwei and hermann & msn conversations with xuannie, zolz, zhengjie, kokwei, justin, adrain, adrain's friends, peihan and a few others which i cant remember really occupied my day (:
skip*
i'll be going over t hermann's hse later for a talk and get my charger back.
and he says he will surprise me, oh whatever. just dont shock me will do =\
uhs :x i keep posting and posting. too bored, upset already la. ZZ!
shall stop posting already ):
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[add-ons]
oh? after i post and went t view my blog, i realised something.
i started to address him by name, hermann.
perhaps im get so bothered by this case and started getting used to believe that he's just my ex? gahhhs, i dontknow. i really dont. i dontwish to feel and do that way lahhsxz! is he still my boy? or no more? ZZZ! Change me back, i so wanted to be hyper again, please.
.

I love him, So what?

2009-03-18T13:28:00.001+08:00

i felt super lost lah.
i know i know, all these is just so real.
lovey dovey photos. WHAT THE FUCK!
dotes on her so much uh, thn dont come near me lahh.
i feels like i'll go crazy anytime.
from one moment to another, i have totally diiferent feelings!
i know i shld trust him or myself, but that girl seems so real that i so wanted to believe her.
i donteven know what i should do cannnsxz.
and i bet noone understands ><
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went out kelly♥ ystd.
went several places & im happy (:
conclusion : amk always make me sad ):

2009-03-17T10:49:00.000+08:00

Just some random photos.

♥

♥

♥
I have been constantly upset these few days.

Over my boyfriend? Or he's just my ex.

I dontknow if i shld trust him, or even myself.

Ending..

2009-03-12T12:44:00.000+08:00

12march, thurs
uh, i actually wanted to meet kelly today. i've got lots of things to tell her :x but mummy says we are gng for buffet dinner at sakura - shaw plaza twin heights tonight, so i couldnt go out =\ and dx and maybe B are joining us.

13march, fri
arghhhs, this 13th of the month falls on a friday again ]:
i still remember, last month which is the 13feb i've got a great fall and the scar is still visible on my knee ): that day v v suay uh .. hope this month nothing goes wrong :x anyway, im catching 'coming soon' this friday w dx and maybe B. pray hard that its a god movie uh x.x
* kelly // go catch 'coming soon' soon also okayyyys! (:

14march,sat
hoho, today AMKSS is having their amksian family day at east coast (:
and many ex-amksian are heading over too, including me :D
mass gatherings, hope to see many people there :)
looking forward :)
* kelly // tell me the time soon alrights, if you are going (:
* zolene // go tgt w them okayyys, bring dx along! shall seeyou there too (:

15march,sun
im gna be busy till 9pm today ):

2009-03-11T18:52:00.000+08:00

)):

2009-03-09T20:17:00.000+08:00

Feeling so PISSED right now !

2009-03-08T11:45:00.000+08:00

uh :x the weather was so bad yesterday, kept raining =\
waited for the rain to stop before i stepped out of house, the weather ruined my day luhh ><
headed to bishan w kw.
he collected his phone that went hospital few weeks ago ~
and thn we're off to look at new phones.
thinking of getting a new phone, but i just gotten mine not v long ago =\
HTC diamond? HTC touch HD? gahhhhhhhh ...
came bck to amk areas and kw met up w his friend for L4D.
thn i headed back home cause im not feeling that well ..
text B when im on my way home (: but he took years to reply x.x.x.x.x.x
the day ended ~
im meeting kelly today ((:

2009-03-07T14:37:00.000+08:00

hohoho.
yesterday night had a long talk with dx at the playground nearby my house (:
recalled so many good memories during aug-sept of 2008, and many many hilarious stuffs happened in 2008, everything was just so great (:
today suppose to meet up with kw at around 2pm but we both woke up really late, so we postpone the meeting time to 5pm instead :p blog about it when im back..
i miss derrick&co ~ busybusybusy :x

2009-03-04T18:28:00.000+08:00

Hoho. New link. Random blog.
Uh. Whatever (:

* tagg to be link :D

2009-02-28T14:25:00.000+08:00

SICK ! -goddamnit-
headache & gastric. feeling so terrible x_x -phew-
arghhh, anyway. i still have to go malaysia for prayers @.@
& i will be back tmr :D
fcukfcukfcuk ! aftr i've eaten the antibiotic for my injuries, acnes began to pop out on my face and my back. im so so so allergic to antibiotic since young, but this time i have no choice but to eat th medicine if not it wont recover. DAMN!

2009-02-24T18:01:00.000+08:00

uh :x i was totally digusted ~
GUYS out there..
if your GIRLFRIEND dislike you adding others girls in friendster/facebook, thn PLEASE dont bring trouble to others. esp; your girlfriend's friend.
okay, here goes the story.
i've a friend(D), whom have a so call boyfriend(B).
(B) and (D) were really close, and they all about anything, even things that betrayed friends.
(D) were so afraid that th so called boyfriend(B) will be snatched away by other people, so she took precaution.. well, what she does is more than taking precaution, she's simply suspicious of everyone, including me. (ohplease, as if i WILL fallin lovewith (B), phew :x)
some unknown day, (B) added me on facebook, and generally i just accept any friend invitation since we known each other. so i didnt really give a damn about it.
but just ago, (D) called me and questioned me. seriously im so pissed ~
she asked me why did i add (B) on facebook, which like, i didnt do it at all.
the main problem isnt this, is that .. how could she ever think that i've the intention to snatch away her boyfriend ! eeeeee, totally disgusted ..

2009-02-23T15:04:00.000+08:00

im already feeling v fcuked up, and why must there be people stil wants to provoke me.
seriously, im NOT in a right mood t hear those sarcastic words. i CANNOT take it.
if you guys are happy ranting nonsense that will make me feel low, thn please. FCUK OFF.
why cant i have friends that comes to me even when they didnt get in to any trouble or have any problems?
why cant i have friends that will be there when i need them and not ORDERING me to be there when they need me?
why cant i have friends that is willing t help or share my burden without asking for rewards?
why cant i have friends that will share not only their sorrows with me?
why cant i have friends that treat me like a friend?
all those whys, really bring me into deep thoughts..
i've tried so hard to be a standard good friend, i helped, i share, i sacrifice.
but it seems that i failed :\

2009-02-20T11:42:00.000+08:00

I checked my bank account yesterday, and realised that i spent away ALL my pay already.
I didnteven know what i spent in on, gosh ~
wonder how im gna survive till nxt mth.
shall not look at branded stuffs anymore :\
i need got alot of thing that i havent get, but my pay have alr gone.
arghh arghh arghh. nvm! save x3
okay, lets talk about yesterday(suppose t blog earlier :\) ..
met up w B yesterday aftrnoon, and we headed to town.
first, takeshimaya.
went t find his money-clip wallet, but couldnt find any nice ones. its either the design is just not right for him or its the leather that he dontlike, well.. he's spr fussy :x
second, plaza sing.
went t best denki first t look for samsung p3, cause he wanted t get it so much. but, it isnt released in the market yet.. the promoter says: soon to arrive, but wasnt sure when. arghh, th feeling hearing that really sucks. so, we went t creative shop instead. take a look at ipod touch, oh, its really cool to have that la. but you know, its a want. so yeah, mummy says its a waste of money.. perhaps getting a phone is more realistic. well, but B bought it there immediately. guessed he really need some mp4, since he like it, thn suit him bahs ><>
second, went to S&K t look for clothes, we're getting some for D.S (: looked arnd, and bought some tees for himself and D.S -satisfied-
thirdly, went mos burger to have dinner, and im feeling abit of unhappy there.. B told me that he've t go by 9pm cause he got t help his friend w th computer thingy so i just kept quiet. and he thought that im angry w him because th friend is a lady and he didnt infm me till i find it out myself. but i wasnt angry, just that im thinking whr i shall head to later on whn he leaves so i kept quiet. &thn he sms-ed th lady and told her that he cldnt make it due to some reasons. i was quite pissed w him cause i dontwant his friend t think that im not letting him go :x
! @ # $ % ^ & ! @ # % ^ & ! @ # $ % ^ & ! @ # $ % ^ & ! @ # $ % ^ &
we went t bugis BHG after that, looked for th wallet again.
this time round, no stock -damnnn-
whats so special about that wallet.. its either not available or no stock. ZZ!
thn we went to the perfume section t look at perfumes -blahblahblah-
went back t amk & meet daxin and pass her something thn go off ..
HOME !

Pain

2009-02-18T14:09:00.000+08:00

Had a fall on th 13 Feb, friday, a very unlucky day.
Till now, my wounds still hurts.
Couldnt bend or squart down, movements are really limited.
Sometimes in the night, it will just hurt like hell, to an extend that it wakes me up from sleep, the pain is just so untolerable.
Putting on bandage looks so ugly when im in shorts or skirts, but i couldnt wear long pants cause it hurts even more.
Life's really bad :\

2009-01-21T10:23:00.000+08:00

You Are 90% Psychic

You are so very psychic.
But you already predicted that, didn't you?
You have "the gift" - and you use it daily to connect with others.
You're very tapped into the world around you...
Just make sure to use your powers for good!

Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male

Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

Your Hair Should Be Brown

You are an intelligent, well respected person.
You are very confident. You take yourself seriously, and other people take you seriously too.

You are a good leader, and you can be trusted with someone's life.
You motivate people well, and you command respect easily.

You are competent, successful, and organized. You can't stand chaos.
Some people mistake you for being cold, calculating, or elitist.

You Should Consider Taking a Break!

So maybe this guy isn't break up material...
But you've had enough of him, for now.
Tell him you want a break - or keep it to yourself.
Either way, spend some time away from this guy -
And see if absence makes *your* heart grow fonder.

Should You Break Up With Him?

You Are 80% Hyper

You have an energy unlike any other. You're full of pep.
People wonder how you are able to get so much done. You love to keep busy.

It's likely that you're very physically active as well. You have a lot of physical endurance.
You are also quite outgoing. You're quick to start up a conversation and make friends.

You have the drive, confidence, and motivation to take you far in life.
While you may tire some people out, someone else is always looking to feed off your energy.

It's Rather Easy For You to Fall in Love

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?

It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off.

In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it.

Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Little Black Dress Says You're Enchanting

You are chic, worldly, and charming.
You naturally fascinating and popular. You never feel like pretending to be someone you're not.

Your style is simple, flattering, and always appropriate. You fill your closet with well quality, timeless items.

If you were a shoe, you would be: Open toed heels

You Are a Party Girl!

You give Paris Hilton and Tara Reid a run for their money
(Who knows? You've probably even run into them at a club or two)
While you do have fun - relax a little every so often
All those drinks do nothing for your looks - or your bank account

You Are a Maverick

You're a restless rebel with an unpredictable nature.
Bright but unbridled, you tend to seek out wild experiences over new ideas.
People are frustrated by your great potential, but you love your unconventional life.
You're a heartbreaker. People get attached to you, and then you're gone.

Your strength: Your thirst for adventure

Your weakness: Not taking time for slow pleasures

Your power color: Hot pink

Your power symbol: Figure eight

Your power month: March