Holidays are supposed to be filled with fun and laughter, isnt't it?
Its the second day of holiday and im not feeling very happy, why?
My brother went for chalet alreadyz, leaving me noone to challenge the game with.
Friends get me to go out with them, but i don't really feel like stepping out of house.
Well, practically bored every moment.
Is holiday really a good thing, to me?

I don't understand why things can changed so fast, including people.
Few days ago we could be happily chatting away, but a few days later not much contact.
What's happening? I really have no idea.
Is it you the one who changed? Or is it me?

I want nothing for now.
Maybe only hoping that people around me could be as happy as possible.

Oh, im getting abit more emotional here.
Have got to go out soonz and have fun during the holidays before i started thinking about all the unhappy things and started crying.

Alrights, just done changing my blogskinsxzxz.

Can't find really nice ones even after looking through for a longgg timesxzxzxz.

Lazy to find already so shall settle with this one firstsxzxzx.

Holiday is here alreadysxzxzxz. Can finally relaxsxzxzx.

Hmmmmmm, nothing much happen today -practically im just too lazy to updatesxzsxz-

So ya, all the twit language today was totally random and to caifeng - irritating. LOLS!

Anyway, hope tomorrow is a better dayszxzxzsx.

Goodnight everybodysxzxzx!
Will blog soonszxxzxz.

P/S: I miss you.

Im now having Communication Practise module right nowszxz.
Today's problem is fun, creating and improving the advertisement.
Later have got to attend JIVE Welcome Tea then after that have to go TTSH to visit KW.
And Maths module & Communication Practise UT tomorrowz, hope it's alrightsxzxz.
Hmmmmm! I've got alot of photos to upload :D Mass webcam session & more coming on!
Featuring: Lesden. Jocie. Zolene. Nadya.

Im having Enterprise Module now. And Enterprise UT later on.

Everything is like so rushed, and i havent studied enough yet.

Today's Enterprise lesson is so difficult, all the theories theories theories. I so dontlike all those theories laaaaa! Anyway, im blogging now while im listening to the 6th P. LOL!

Tomorrow gonna be a dreadful day, totally.

Because we're having Science module and Maths UT. A super bad day tomorrowz. -DIES-

I wonder when's the Science UT going to take place, hope its on the wednesday! So that i can have my friday off :D

Tomorrow's the 26th May. It used to be a joyful day. And i hope its still too.

Anyway, HappyBirthday in advanced!

Im feeling so unwell right nowszxz!

Enterprise lesson & UT tomorrow. So dead.

SCIENCE LESSONS!

- Aizat Teresa and Me were playing with these Atoms Molecules!

Aizat with his atoms doggie paying attention to 6th P!

Random pic! Same type of pen and pencil and happen that we're in the same group!

Maths lesson :D! - Lesden Ida Crystal Divya

Photo taken when all of us were having 5mins break before the next presentation.

Came back from washroom & get divya to take this pic! RANDOM! - Crystal Alexis Ida Lesden

Fruity Chocolate from JunHao. Brought to school and share with classmates (:

BELTATED PHOTOS! - 1ST MONTH ANNIVERSARY!

Science UT postponed. Cognitive & Problem Solving - The Argument Clinic is fun.

New group members and 'm loving them - Jodieee. Erdieee. Peishan. Iqbal.
After school. SA Welfare Day! - Totally Great! Game Masterz Rocks My Socks!

Event ended quite late, after met up with Alex & co. Fun people. Fun times!

Went to meet up with KellyLuv after so long of not seeing her.

Chatted alot alot alot alot. Good day i had todayszxz!

Heading over to Raffles Place later.
Heading out to bugis with Daniel and Zolene tomorrow?

Life's unpredictable. You never know what's gonna happen the next moment.

So people, why waste time being angry with each other when peace could be made if you make one step back? Why get bothered about things that you cant do anything with it? Why keep getting upset over things that is already the fact? Why bother backstabbing others when in the end the one getting hurt will most probably be yourself? Why bother quarreling with each other when actually happy times could be shared together?

Life's short, really short.

Choose to Love than to Hate. Isnt it happier to live happily?

Say sorry to those you've been mean to.

Say imissyou to those you really treasures.

Say iloveyou to those you really want to love.

Dont regret only after everything's gone. Once gone, they never come back anymore and this is life.

But can i be as happy as what i hoped it would be? Happy moments are awaiting for me, are they?

Im losing the sight of you, where have you gone to?

I miss you so much.

Hmmmm. Today's Communication Practice againz (:

Steamy red nails and class theme : Black todayz :D !

We taken classphotos tooooo !

HAPPY FIRSTZ MONTH TO E35E ~ LOVESSSS DEEEEP DEEPPPP !

Msn disturbing againsxz ! And my msn also kena ~ Had pretty much fun.

Esp the convo of them with zolz and the webcamming session with zolz and my whole class.

HAHA. i think zolz know what im talking about :D HAHA!

They talked to people that i dontwant to talk to in my msn contacts also. Sending the good luck message to her. Super dislike it lorhsxz. But anyway, who gives a damn. We're plain having fun and thats all.

Suppose to take photo with Lesden again todaysxz. But .. after UT my mood not that good, i think my classmatess and daniel know whyyy ): So ya, sorry people if im emo just now and even few dayz before.

I'LL BE ALRIGHTSXZ YEAHHHH !

Lesden Lesden, pictures soonz yeap (: !

went for SA game masterz meeting at library today.

we did alot more discussions and finally get to meet the rest of the two teammates :D

well, though only 6/10 attended the meeting, everything's still doing fine.

finalize on the plans and sorts and we're having a dry run for our game tomorrow.

so it would be like meeting them at the same place on the same time.

hope tomorrow(after school) is a better day.

cause i know science for me will never be fun..

WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME ?

It havent been me these few days. Felt super moody and no energy or motivation to do anything nowadays. Well, certainly NOT because of PMS if you guys are thinking of it.

I have no mood to crack jokes, join in the fun, get high, pay attention to lesson, and even doing my RJ! Like today's RJ question, which used to be the type of question where i can write lots and lots of meaningful things. But now, i wrote my RJ for like less than 150 words. I felt so so so pathetic right nowz!

WHY HAVE I CHANGED ? i hope its only a temporaily change .

Cause i seriously dont like the me now, there's just something OR could be everything that is wrong? uh :x i seriously dont get in laaaaa ~

People, get the old me back please. I dontwant to be so emotional or neither look so emo anywhere cause i will join back my class soonz! I hoped i can make it, as well as the class accepts it. Ohman, its getting emo alreadyz :x

MOOD PLEASE COME BACK !

SOME PICTURES THAT I FORGOTTEN TO UPLOAD :P
LESDEN DREW THIS WHEN IM FEELING MOODY ! thanks though.

DANIEL !

Went for the Student Ambassador First Formal Meeting already.

Lame ice breaking game then proceed to lecture room.

We are intro-ed to what SA is all about and ya. Then we are seperated into six groups and ya. Im in the same group as MARION, good thing :D

Needa assign roles and all. And im the overall in charge :D Marion as the game incharge (:

And we are the GAME MASTERS!

Gotta meet up with the team for more planning and modification of the game that we have to come up with. And we have got the SA welfare thingy on the 22nd of may!

Hohoho, hope its a fun day :D

After that stayed behind to acc marion to wait for alex & friends.

Went to TRCC and blahblahblahblahblah. Waited till like 8 or so like that? Its so freezing cold inside :x ZZZ!

UT is coming up real real soon ~ DIE !

And my bloody MSN account cannot logg in! Same problem as daryl's one. Irritating laaa! Have to create new one. Grrrrr!

So people, eternity-perfection@live.com.sg is NOT in use alreadyz.
Changed to, something similiar but yet different! Ask me, if i didnt add you!

Finally posted.

Yeah, after so long of not blogging. I'm now back. Currently didnt have any mood to blog either so shall just do it randomly. I've my very first class photo alreadyz, and shall upload it later.
But wenting's not inside :x School's still the same. Presentations Presentations and Presentations. Some good news, i passed the Student Ambassadors Interview.
And today im going for the very first Student Ambassadors Meeting Probation Trail with Marion. Hope its interesting ya.
Since yesterday, im not feeling right alreadyz. Felt so bothered and all, no mood at all. I have been super quiet in class yesterday and today.
And i cant even multi task now, is just like the computer is lagging.
Hope i will be alright on monday. And now, im here typing my blog entry during break and emo-ing? Oh, i dontknow. Moodless uh. Sian like dontknow what. Lucky today's frday. Have gotta seriously relax after school today.
Maybe to somewhere more relaxing, alone or ? i dontknow.
Actually wanted to blog everyday, but seems like i donthave the time to do so. Life's so busy. RJ RJ RJ, or perhaps im just plain lazy luh. HAH.
Well, let me talk about yesterday.
Hmmmmm, lesson's fine.
Stayed behind to do study and went revising for UT test after that. Zolz went for the social dance thing, then me daniel and lesden studied in class till the security comes then we went to the library to continue.
Well, practically we studied only science cause its like one of my lousiest subject. Anyway, had pretty much fun in the library playing with msn and ya. Lols! Shhhhhh, the monkey next door is playing with my msn :D
HAHAHA! - DONT TRY TO BOTHER ME IF I AM BUSYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY -
Okay, new day start today. Cognitive & Problem Solving now!
Today no presentation, only essay writing and ya, discussions.
Everything went quite well yeap. Today supposingly, we should change our groupings but we request for one last time to be in the same team this week.
Anyway, we already gotten a preview on our new team. And i dont like it at all. NO!
Was pretty upset about changing teams for this lesson, dontknow why. At first at first, i have totally no mood today, totally lost and whatever, dont even feel like talking or speaking to anyone. However things went better when we're having the second break (:
Alex and co came to E3 level 5 for lunch. They brought along their lunchpack and blahblah. Acc them till they finished and ya. They are fun peoplesss. Lols!
Came into E35E and said hi to my classmates and blahhhhh !
GREAT :D lol.
My day was made happier by them. A
nd my hair was like totally messed up. THANKS TO AMIN DARYL ERDIE for their creation luh! LOL.

* HOHOHO *

* CHEESE *

THE CREATION OF DARYL AND ERDIEEEEEE [:

LESDENNNNN !

ME AND LESDEN (:

MAIN POINT'S NOT ME, IS CX :D

DARYL'S MUSCLE ._. WITH MY FACE BLOCKED :D

* CLASS PHOTO SNAP SHOT 1 *

* CLASS PHOTO SNAPSHOT 2 *
ACTUALLY THERE'S MORE. BUT TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD EVERYTHING :x

AND I THANKS THOSE THAT TRIED TO CHEER ME UP WHEN IM FEELING LOW! NOT FORGETTING THOSE THAT CARE TOOOO :D LOVE YOU GUYS !

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.

A random day today.

Helped Kokwei with his blogged and everything.

Done lots of quizes on facebook with Dibao.

Chatted on msn with alot of people.

Played restaurant city pet society mafia wars and guitar geek on facebook.

Dinner out at town with family.

My day ended.

- i tried to make myself happy a little by not thinking too much -

*edited*

Friday's school was MARVELLOUS :D !
Team members went super high and SOMETHING funny happened.
HIGH HIGH HIGH :D
-lazy to elaborate- YOU KNOW I KNOW !
School ended. Stayed in class and did the evaluation and quiz while waiting.

-GREAT TIME-

Hanping came to school and fetch me then we both headed back to amgmokio together to meet his friends.

Dinner - Kpool - Home - MSN - Last Minute RJ - Stayed up late

I kept asking myself ..

CAN FADED FEELINGS BE RETRIEVED ?

I dontwant to have FEMALE friends that smokes.

Even i have, they're obviously JUST a NORMAL friend.

Im currently in school having my break and will be working for my presentation slides after i finished blogging.
Today we had our mathematics module, its still as confusing.
I hate it when i got stuck on one question and seeing every others moving forward.
Arghhhhh.. Off to do work on presentation alreadyz :x

Can Faded Feelings Be Retrived ? Teach Me How.

School's fine today :D Had Communication Practice today.
Met daxin ziwei and his friend, khairul(i think) at the train station.
BlahBlahBlah, school's alright and whatever ..
I've been random in school today :D I just click on anyone on ziwei's msn and started saying hello! So those victims, sorry ah! Lols, all because of random-ness :D !
As usual, i stayed in school till round seven like that then go off.
But today daxin and hermann came to my class (: Lesden & Arlene were in class too ! -FUN-
Well, everything's pretty good except that my blog entry today is super duper boring. I donteven know what im like talking about here laaa.
Shall stop blogging alreadyz, see you guys soon :x

* Thanks WeiCheow for giving me that morning call (:

went to crystal's blog. was too bored so tried out this facebook quiz (:

well, it's me. haha!

尽管生活是有崎区挫折, 但你总有办法克服, 顺利渡过! 你遭遇过的措折比一般人多. 你曾经接触过一些难相处的人, 没道理的规定和不和谐的人际关系. 你对爱情的态度就像太阳表面一般热情高温. 当你被很多烦人的事困扰的时候, 你要不就是非常镇定的静观其变, 要不就是以领导者的姿态出现叫大家都闭嘴! 你觉得一个人去看电影没什么大不了. 反而想不通为什么有些人非要有人陪 才肯去看电影. 你感到自在, 不论是一个人独处或处在人群当中. 你对你的父母不很满意但又无法改变他们. 你会是个很好的情人. 如果你能在万人之中找到和你极为相配的人. 不然的话, 你和恋人的关系总是不能持久或痛苦结束. 你可能已经和一个你并不爱的人在一起太久了. 生活就像在坐云霄飞车一样, 你总是想尽办法让生活过得更加如你所愿. 你要不就是个运动迷, 要不你就曾经嚐试过禁药.

well, i decided to move on alreadyz.

had a long talked with kengboon yesterday night after so long of not contacting and realised many things had changed. almost everything's different already.

i wished time could be like before again, seriously. i'll definately missed this friend of mine.

last of all, wished him all the best in finding another part (: ! thanks for his wishes and talk too !

hoho, this's taken yesterday! (:

ME + LESDEN = AWESOME ! (quoted from lesden)

* long RJ doesnt mean good RJ *

Today's a tiring day. I spent the whole day in school practically doing nothing.
Everything except lesson today was dreadful. First time i ever said that lesson could actually be some sort of fun somehow :x
Everything including msn conversations is wrong. I seriously dont like today, seriously. Shocked after shocked. Disappointment after disappointment. Sadness after sadness. Nothing could be ever more wrong then today. Everything's bad.
I'd talk on student ambassadors IG again tmrw ._.

What's gonna happen next ?
So many things i wanted to do. So many i wanted to say .
But time and courage doesnt allow me to .
Im all right since school started but whats now ? Things are going haywire and nothing seems right ? I dread this type of thing , seriously .
I think i need support , more .
Hmmmmmmmmmm , came to school today with WeiCheow . Thanks him for meeting me up (: Hope he could recover soon :D !
What's gonna happen after school today ? I wonder .

I'M NOT AHLIAN LAAAAAAAAAA ._.

i dontlike it when people mistook me as ahlian. esp: after reading my post!

IMissYouNow.

Mixed Feelings

1st may - labour day !
i went out with three of my dearest classmates ; crystal lesden daryl
we went to town , caught a movie called sell out , okay , shouldnt elaborate on that movie cause we went . . . . after watching that movie . haha !
DONT BUT ME , I DONT LIKE PEOPLE TO BUT ME . -LOL-
before the movie we went to arcade and blahblahblah , saw kengboon and his friendsss outside the arcade :x tried to say hi but . . . nevermind . -idontlikeyourwayofreacting-
after the movie we just slack around town areas and we crapped all the way .
well , its was pretty fun yesterday though we were quite lost ya , lol .
hmmmmmm , crystal left us when we were at burger king .
and ya , lesden got tricked bout the bangle thing ! lolololol ~
after that lesden and i acc daryl to the bus stop and wait for his bus ~
then we walked all the way back to the train station and train-ed back to amk to meet dx .
let's end the outing with a group photo :D !

* thanks lesden for taking the train back with me ! goodluck all the way :D haha !

okay , suppose to meet daxin right after i reached amk .
but she's didnt know i reached already so i waited for her at hub alighting point for quite awhile .
after meeting her , many many things happened .
i saw so so so many familiar faces and ya , mr chow too .
okay after all these happy things , the shitty part comes alreadyz .

some fcuking person came t look for problem and act like as if he's some big gangster thing .
fcuking hell , he calls his friend whom is at kpool down to see show cause we were not scared of him when he shows attitude , damnnnn i seriously hate it when he kept going .. limbei limbe$i limbei ! i was so pissed off with him laaa , act one big gangster when he's like cant even compared to a shrimp . Z ! we are not allowed to go home thn im thinking of calling someone down t acc me peii daxin home first then i head home to be safe . i didnt know who to mafan at that time and i was messaging adrian at that time , so i called him to come over since he's in amk area .
- more story behind -

and it totally freaked me out but i did realised that buddy is not there only for good names . he's willing to help me out when i gotten involve in some shitty matters without claiming any compliments nor complaining about it . i really really thanks him and his friendsss yesterday night . they went to the extent that they acc me sent dx home and walked back home with me (: ! much much appreciated and his words touched me lots . though i knew him for very long alreadyz and we're on sucha good terms but i never thought that he would be the one that could actually come to 'rescue' when this type of things happened . im really glad that i know this buddy of mine - adrian (: ! and his friends :D

anyone , just asked me for more info if you wanted to know what type of shitty matters i gotten involved in yesterday night , labour day night . i wont mind sharing , i really dont [:

and dx , if ever you wanted to like let me , buddy and friends down , i dontthink its worth helping you anymore . we helped you yesterday because as a friend i dontwant anything bad to happen to you but if you want to continue and more shitty things come up , im afraid we wont want to care anymore . you , go think about it yourself , see whether its worth it making all these trouble or not . we wouldnt blame you for yesterday's thing but please make your stand clearly , if ever you want to side him in the end , then you know you should just forget it and dont bother to ask me for help in the first place . this short post for you is not has no offence , just wanna let you know how we actually feel here .

well , after this matter , i seriously went into thinking . who will really 'come to rescue' when this time of things happen ever again .

where are you when i need you ?

I can cry so hard listening to 下雨天

School's funn but i dont like my grades. All B's and C's and im tired of it :x Pretty much discouraging uhs .
I met up with KellyLuv recently and i've a great talk with her , im happy !
Im one step closer with my buddy and his friends(adrian, wei cheow, dibao) , i 've fun chatting with them , im happy !
I met new friends(alex's classmates) , well i want get to know them more , interesting , im happy !
I went out with kokwei , had a super great time with him , im happy !
I joined JIVE , cool IG , im happy !
Im heading out with some of the E35E loved ones(Lesden, Daryl, Crystal) tmrw , looking forward , im happy !
I've been webcamming with many people , many many , im happy !
I met up with ZolzSis recently , im happy !
Im staying back in school with friends(bh and dx and and and) , im happy !
I love E35E , it's so united , im happy !

He's behaving weirdly recently. Why have we stopped contacting each other?
I dontknow laaa, i hoped everything could be like before.
When he'll text me everyday and all. I dontwant to lose a goodfriend like that.